Happy New Year!

 The past year was full of so many eventful and unexpected moments. There'll be no doubt that i'll start my new year with great anticipation. =)

 In order to create your dreams, we must not shy away from stepping into our greatness,
 we must first determine what kind of life we want for ourselves.
 Then have the perseverance and confidence to go out there and seize it.
While it may be exhausting at times,
we must always continue to climb the ladder of our unique journey,
 keeping our heads held up high and our grace about us,
 so that when we rest we will have attained true contentment and peace of mind.

No matter how you plan on spending your new year,

whether you are dressing up and hitting the town,

or staying in and lifting a glass.

I wish you all the best in 2012, 

may your resolve remain strong,

your heart remain full, and your

optimism be endless.

Happy New Year!!

Of the past...

Do you ever keep letters from the past? I collect them, and keep them in a box.Not just old letter.. movie tickets, carefully pealed chocolate wrappers, a tag or anything that means to me.. Every now and then i would whipped them out and read them. There's just something about hand written letters... it really projects the whole scenario into my head, bringing me back to where and when that letter was first read..

Do you ever keep old letters?

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Runny Thursday..

My nose is running all over, temp high and feeling cold.

Body- pls get better already.

A little something cute..

=D

Happy Day, lovelies!! 

Time flies..

He has grown so much! 

=)

The final days..

So Christmas has passed-like in a flash. I always love the last few days of the year. Somewhat more beautiful than the rest of 365 days. More nostalgic for me as well. It is cooler, wet and cloudy.

There are so many things i would like to try in the coming year and the future. I'm taking some time to put it into place.. Well, it is looking good. Goals and resolutions are always tricky.. I just hope that i can live up to it. I MUST.

My first would be... i really hope want to have less baggage and more space... Both physically and emotionally.
But i don't know how to go around that. I think it would pretty do-able... =)

How about you? What do you expect from yourself this coming year? Remember to have resolutions that you actually can achieve!! =)

Happy Monday to all of you.

Merry Christmas !

Hello people,

We'll be having Tiramisu this year, and it's ready...

to go into my belly.. =)

Before that, i want to wish you all..

A very very wonderful weekend, 

And a very merry Christmas to all of you.

Take me here...

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Christmas dinner! =)

I'm feeling good!! =)

Christmas is 3 days away!!! 

Weeeee.......

Congrats Savita!!! =D Glad for you.

Sunny Saturday Morning!!

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Pink Martini has the most sexiest songs!!

This is so nice ..

Should i wear this for Christmas?

Happy Saturday to you!!

Lots of love for you :)

Friday!!!

Hallo!! =D It's Friday.. Smile for a Friday..

Christmas is so near... are you ready?? I'm not..

This song is stuck in my head, it sounds a little haunting,

but i think mainly because you could actually

hear her sadness,disappointments and pain in her amazing voice..

Happy Weekend!

The best things in life, are indeed free..

Sometimes, angels don't come with a halo and huge wings... they sometimes have four legs and a tail. :D 

This is a little video which i took on the first day i brought him home.

That was how he ran to me when we first met..

I think he chose me more than i chose him...

And he always wants to follow me home when i visited him..

Look at how much my little puffball has grown.

That's his favourite plant : lemon grass.

Once,I found him sleeping in between the long leaves..

Love you Mr. Brown, forever and ever.

This Christmas i will buy you some amazing treats!!

And you can sit with me for Christmas dinner and

 you can have tender turkey too!!

Simply because you love me 

whole-heartedly and faithfully

and like no men ever can.

 

Chanel Paris-Bombay Show 2011/12

Stunning!! More here

Eddie Vedder is awesome!!

Some of his versions are so good,

just makes me want to cry..

What do you think?

=)

Love for you beautiful people!!

Grey skies are above me..

Today i feel a little grey and i can't seem to shake it off... 
Sometimes i get angry how nature works, how timing and places work..
How you really want things but its just never going to happen,
there's absolutely nothing anyone can do..but to just deal with it..
I can't control it, that why i am angry.... 
because i constantly have to beat myself to be my best..
Every time some one dear passes away, it always makes me love my life even more..
In the guest book, his daughter wrote , " I love you, daddy"..


I can't imagine how she would be feeling, losing her dad a few months before her wedding..
I can't imagine losing mine, at any point of my life... simple because he is my pa, and he will always
take care of me,love and uphold me until his last breath.
I am lucky, blessed, and honoured to have such a responsible, dedicated and loving father.


Christmas is next week, i don't want presents or gifts, i just want more time to spend with the people i love, more wisdom to discern between good and bad, and the courage to take that step, more patience to be around people, more love for those who need it, and more warmth to heat up the cold hearted, more grace to  accept that sometimes things don't go according to plans. To be more kind to those are undeserving, to love myself more each day. and to say i love u to my mom and dad, before its too late. ( i just can't )..
To be less rigid and fearless and just sail into the rough seas, and if its me alone-so be it. 


Sometimes it seems so difficult, but it gets better everyday doesn't it?
In His own time, His will be done, not mine. One day i will get it right.
I hope that there's not a sight of grey cloud over you today!!
Lots of love for all of you, may you all have a pleasant day.
=)

Take me here....

 Sit a while with me, and lets laugh together until dawn breaks..

It would be freezing though!!

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Hey you beautiful souls, how are you people keeping up?

So much happened in this  short spell of time, good and bad..

Last weekend, i attended my friend's wedding reception.

She was my room-mate for a while back in college..

And suddenly she was someone's wife.

How time really flies. I hope not- but it is.

Life just goes on doesn't it?

Sometimes i just want things to be left the way it is...

Owwwhhhhh fat hopes.

Mostly, its because i want to change the choices,

which could have made my life so much better..

but then again, i wouldn't be who i am today..

Christmas is coming and i can't feel the spark..

I don't feel that happy yay feeling..

but i do feel nice, and contented with life.

But i feel excited when i hear sexy Christmas songs..

(check out Micheal Buble's Christmas Album)

What have you guys been up to?

Busy with Christmas too? buying gifts?

getting ready for the new year..

what would your new year's resolution be?

=)

Happy Day to all of you!!

This is gorgeous(from Zac Posen)!! Please wrap it up for me with a red ribbon! =)

I'll readily wear it for Christmas - don't care if i am overdressed or not..

=D

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Hey you guys, i have been pretty sick lately.

This version is so beautiful, brings back fond memories.

I stayed a while, and i have to go now...

Good bye you beautiful soul..

If fate ever allows it, i will be so blessed to

have you in my life again...

Have a great week ahead.

Lots of love for all of you. =)

I'm thankful, sometimes ashamed that i take sunrise for granted - that my life is filled with life. Some look forward to the next sunrise, but it never comes. Those who are dying, waits anxiously for it each day, everyday. Counting each sunrise as a blessing from above...

Happy Monday to all of you, i hope you appreciate every sunrise in your life because nobody can do it for you.

OOhhh my....

via here

It's December alreadyyyy

=)

Give me something shiny..

and i will wear it for Christmas. Stunning pieces, don't you think so?  =)

1,2,3

Something velvety

Oh my precious little one...

Mr Brown is growing up so fast... My sister tells me that he sleeps outside by himself now.. I remember the days when he was so small and he would use his paw to knock our door if we locked him out for the night... And he cries ... Wanting to be beside us..

Did you know that dogs are afraid of the dark too when they are young?

I miss him so much.. I can almost smell him sometimes....

My sister tells me that he misses me too... Sometimes when I'm gone for a few days... He comes into my room and cries at my bed, he jumps onto my bed and rolls on it and sleeps on it... Sometimes he sleeps under my bed...

What better love can God bestow upon me? A love that is forever faithful, always caring and wanting to be there.. A love so great, no matter how tired I am, I will still carry on to do things for him.

Because he follows me into the bathroom and waits for me there, he waits for me when I'm cooking dinner... Because he always wants to be near me, sometimes when I run faster and leave him behind, he gets angry and grabs my leg- not letting it move any further... Sometimes he brushes his fur against my legs to let me know he is there... Sometimes he only wants to eat my food and not his, because he wants to share whatever I'm having- even thought our food are the same.. Hahahahahaa...

What better love can I ask for? He gives me nothing but pure joy and happiness... My precious little thing... Love you always... Can wait to go home and love you more!!!

Well my lovelies, this is my love story. Hoping that your coming week is beautiful. Start it with love and kindness- always works for me!!!

Love for all of you.... :)

Come a little bit closer
Hear what I have to say
Just like children sleepin'
We could dream this night away.

But there's a full moon risin'
Let's go dancin' in the light
We know where the music's playin'
Let's go out and feel the night.

Because I'm still in love with you
I want to see you dance again
Because I'm still in love with you
On this harvest moon.

When we were strangers
I watched you from afar
When we were lovers
I loved you with all my heart.

But now it's gettin' late
And the moon is climbin' high
I want to celebrate
See it shinin' in your eye.

Because I'm still in love with you
I want to see you dance again
Because I'm still in love with you
On this harvest moon.

Weekend in..

Today i stayed at home and watched this beautiful movie about ....

Some said that the movie doesn't do any justice to the book... Well i am going to read the book then...
But these kind of love, sad , romantic books are ..... i find them really terrifying, me being a hopeless romantic.. Some how these awesome authors manage to write down every single emotion that you cannot explain through words. Touches me deep down inside... Le sigh. The beauty of words..

Anyways after watching this movie, i had a little small outing with my friends.. =)
It felt good... wished it could have last longer..

Wishing you a very very happy weekend to all my dear readers!
Love for all of you... =)


p/s : did i mention that their OST is amazing!! =) Check out the movie + the soundtrack

A little lace dress for the weekend...

Fabulous Friday

Today i woke up to a phone call from my good good friend, someone i truly care about, we have never been able to be there physical for each other but always there somehow.... It was a pleasant surprise. But still i am still in my transition state, where sometimes the only thing that is holding me back is .. fear.

Here is how things go in my head:

 I'm scared, what if.... i'm terrified.... i'm scared.. like really ok?  What would i do is this happened, or that happened? Will i ever regret, why am i even having this conversation with my brain....

Then i felt a little tired, try having a debate with your own brain...

Then ... "Why are so scared, what is the worst thing that can ever happen to you? Look at the light... follow it.. no one is perfect... just take that step... everything you ever wanted is just outside your comfort zone..."
" Nooo.... you don't understand.. I'm really scared ... to breathe to move... what if everything just becomes worst?"

So i just ignored my brain for the rest of the day and put on my ear phones...
This was what i heard....

         Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams

         Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before..

         Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar...

         And you'll live like you've never lived before...

        Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,

        In this darkness you know you cannot fight...

        Let your mind start a journey 

        through a strange new world

        Leave all thoughts

       Of the life you knew before

        Let your soul take you where you long to be

Illustration .. of what happened in my brain..

It's going to be worth it

I'm scared.... I'm not ready at all,

..fear, Excuses, Nothing is easy

Take a leap of faith,Pessimism,terrified, 

I'm not ready, its not time yet, I'm not ready

YOU CAN DO IT.fear

You deserve this,I'm not ready, Be courageous 

i am really scared...

fear... Face your fears!

I cannot run away can i... its Friday ok.. give me a break!

Dear readers, you are really appreciated,

 please come forward and let me get to know you!! =)

Have a fabulous weekend!

Do u have enough?

Hey you guys!!! How's Thursday treating you? Mine was kinda awesome, nothing fancy but just it's just such a pleasant day... I saw this beautiful image while I was jogging... :) there"s something about nature that is so comforting...

This is enough to keep me going .... Too easy to get caught up in a destructive cycle, don't you think so? Yesterday while I was waiting for public transport, my day was ok, not like amazing.. And this guy beside me smiled at me and started talking to me.. He told me he is excited to do business today, he sells peanuts in a packet( those that cost one buck) and he was well dressed for that kind of business, he wore an ironed button down with a three quater pants. Honestly he looks kinda edgy for a peanut seller.. His look was completed with a pair of white old sneakers(the sort we wear to school).

However I can't help but notice that his socks were held up with rubber bands, simply because there was no more elasticity in them.. And I am terribly humbled by that situation. Because how many of us can smile( like him) and wear rubber bands with our socks... Yet still looked forward to do what we have to do everyday?

Socks held up by rubber bands for you?

Lots of love for all my readers, even if you are just visitng.. Do leave a message, so I can get to know you better. :)
Have an amazing day...

Ohh Laa Laa

wishlist for Christmas!! - Red hot nails with a glittering dress =)

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Mild Wednesday

Hey peeps, i am totally addicted to instagram!!!

Anyways, how is the rest of your wednesday coming along?

Mine was pretty mild- i have an aching head..

I think i have been playing with my instagram for far too long.

Hope your day was pleasant!!

till then, 

Lotsa love for all of you beautiful beings

=)

Why don't you wear a beautiful backless dress?

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My all time fav heel!! =) Goes with everything!!

hahaha

Monday Update..

My weekend was bad, i honestly don''t know why all my weekends are bad.

I am in this shit place that seems so dark.

On my way back today, i cried all the way for 4 whole hours

but totally regretted it later..

Because my eyes look like shit now and 

i have a thudding migraine..

(the person sitting next time me must be totally pissed)

Nontheless, no matter how bad i am always grateful

i am happy to be able to wake up everyday to see the sunrise with Mr Brown...

I am glad all my loved ones are safe and sound,

I am happy i am able and all my limbs are working perfectly,

Happiness is knowing Mr Brown waits for me faithfully everyday, all the time,

Happiness is being with family..

Happiness is savouring life with all i have.

Happiness is knowing i can get up when i fall down again.

Not forgetting

Happiness is not about wealth or material.

The most beautiful being in my world.

Mr Brown is a big boy now.. He is getting taller and longer... 

And he is totally spoilt.

Non the less he loves me sooo much because he just wants to be

around meeeeeeee...

May all of you have a great day/evening ahead.

Love for all of you!!

=)

Purple Beauty.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G 

Pretty little things..

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Do you ever .. ?

Worry? I worry way too much when i'm sad and down. I'm afraid i won't laugh again.
I'm afraid i won't wake up and appreciate the sun.

I'm scared of the future.. but when i am happy i embrace it with much love and look forward to every adventure.
I am scared if my parents die too early.. I can't remember the last time i kissed him.

What if i am always going to feel this way. I need something bigger.. to remind me how small i am, and how tiny my worries are. I feel so insecure, and i know it takes time to heal.

Did i ever mention i am way too impatient. I feel like yelling at my wounds, " Heal already ! "
It has only been 24 hours. Its going to be a long and winding road.

I wished things would just go away, i wish for many many things. But reality remains.

What Bad Day?

Yesterday i couldn't even sleep... drifting in and out of sleep. I had to cancel all my plans today because the moment i opened my eyes i was feeling numb and i had a thudding headache.

I was a having a horrible day, i was sitting in my hall, in my empty beautiful house. 

Like the house, i feel empty too.

I could hear the clock ticking, seconds just kept ticking away and with each tick the pain grew greater.

I was was disappointed, sad and angry with the things that kept happening to me.

I cried until my swollen eyes couldn't cry no more. I wish i could do something, break things. Get angry at the world. Wondered why it is so easy for everyone to keep together. Everyone seem to has the key to everything but not me. What have i been missing?

I realised that the mistake was me, i was valuing myself through my failures and obstacles... never the other way though. 

So i failed, not just once.... many many times in many many things.And through all these failures i learn, unfortunately the hard way. I am growing - a lot, but the pain is greater and more vast than the sea.

Sometimes it gets hard to breathe. Time don't heal, you heal when you let things go. I feel like i can't go on, not even one more step - not even an inch.

So i thought i was having a bad day... like as if it couldn't get any better. Like as if i were in the dumps.

Really?

What about those who are lying in the hospital dying? What about those mothers whose baby dies 2 minutes after being born... What about those who had dreams but were cut short because they died in the operation theatre? What about those who were counting their days.... here i am .... having a bad day...

Cold and Wet Weekend..

It's Saturday... and i am going to lie in bed all day long and all night long. =D


A little something for all of you!! =) This duo is just amazing.

Bad Bad Friday.

My day was so bad today, i hope that the remaining hours will be better..

1)I am totally frustrated with the traffic at my new place. I travel quite a bit, and everyone goes gaga on a Friday, and it was raining. And it was peak hour. I sat in the bus for 1hour and 50 minutes - a journey that normally take about 40 minutes. I deserve a freaking GOLD MEDAL!!!!

2) Today i had a reality check moment. I just realised what my body actually look like after months of not running at 10km/h. It looks like ....... { pls fill in the blanks } . and i can no longer wear figure hugging dresses without tucking in my tummy ( sometimes tucking it in doesn't even work ). Some days i find myself wear skirts only because i can't fit into my pants?

Maybe this can help you understand...

 I used to climb mountains for goodness sake.

This is the highest peak i can take, to be reminded how all the chocolate squares have contributed to what i am today...

Tomorrow will be a better day, hopefully i will start exercising like a crazy person and get to lose some weight before Christmas, because i will DEFINITELY put on weight for that occasion. Damn It.

Can i have this wrapped up with a red ribbon for Christmas!

Thank You.

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Wishing...

I can't wait for Christmas.. some of the malls are already playing Christmas Carols... my mom has asked me to put up the Christmas tree.. but honestly i am a little afraid... do you know what 

this angelic face will do to the ornaments and the tree, and tree bark? Trust me- you won't want to know.

I just miss Christmas because everyone will be home and there's so much food(!), love and it just feels great. Not forgetting all the glitters, and beautiful dresses i am going to wear and ..... all the stuffs i am going to buy.

hahhahahah.

Nah, actually i just feel happy around Christmas because it's the time i thank God for another beautiful year, and this year grandma will be with us.

But, first and foremost... how do i put up a Christmas tree and stop my dog from eating it!! haha.

I am totally crazy.. it's the 10th of Nov!!!!!

Over and over again.

Hey you guys, how have you been while i was busy doing ..... nothing. haha. I have been doing everything actually. And only today i manage to really sit down and write.

Life has been good - it is always good no matter how sunny or cloudy it may be. Today i am feel all nostalgic about my one love. I am mostly away from home, so i talk to him via the phone on loudspeaker mode. And he is growing by the day. Every time i see him after a week or so, he seem to be bigger and wiser and not so naughty any more { like as if playing is no more his thing } ..

My sister said that sometimes he waits for me by the door.. I am the closest person to him. Whenever i return home, his tail wags like from east to west and his ears are pulled back like as if he is smiling from ear to ear.... and he hugs my legs... so i carry him into my arms and he licks my face... and he makes this funny sound, almost saying " Where have you been, i missed you sooooo much "...

Today my sister realised that his baby teeth has fallen out!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. i am actually missing all these..

Hahaha... my sister said he is missing 2 of his front teeth and one from the bottom row... i can actually imagine how he looks like... CUTE!! i will definitely post a picture of him.

this beautiful puppy has brought much love into my life.

He is growing so much, i wish he could stay this way forever.. Sometimes my dad says i love him too much. How can i not? After what he has gone through. I pray that the next surgery that he will be going for, will help him pee and let him lead a normal dog life... Sometimes when he plays with other dogs... he gets bullied all the time, i wonder if its because he is not the same as other dogs.

I love you Mr. Brown. =)