Do you ever....

 Feel like giving up. Note, it is not a question. It is a statement.
 Do you ever feel alone, on this journey although you have so many friends and close one around you.
 It's like a silent, black and white movie. People moving around me, there's laughter, sadness, excitement, life..
 But i am always on a stand-still. Looking and watching these people around me.

 I constantly feel i am walking this road alone. ( Alone- not lonely) Aren't we all? i guess not.
 I have one question, is this normal.
 I feel that i am constantly out there, giving my all, striving for the best, trying the hardest, being the
 most critical, always am the first to take initiative.

 I am exhausted. I feel that i am alone, i feel bare, like ... silly. I feel so silly that i am the only one trying so
 hard, and i feel exposed. I thought we were a team. Why do i constantly feel that i have to take the first step?
 Why do i always feel that people are just talking for the sake of it, and not thinking at all.
 Why does no one think of the big stuffs ? Is it really that exhausting?
 I feel like a leader all the time, if i do A, then people will do A too. But i have to do it FIRST, so that people
 will follow. And the frustrating part it, shouldn't we all make the same amount of initiative?

 Or am i too fast and too much? Is this how leaders really feel - i am definitely not a follower, i never sit
 around and wait, and follow other's footsteps..Am i really set aside for greater paths?
 Or does it really show how lazy people are and how they don't really care about what we're suppose to
 produced.

I AM CONSTANTLY FEELING LIKE THIS :

What do you think? Or am i just too much ?
I feel like i have the power, to change things, IF i take that step.
Its like i can see 100 steps ahead...
Aarrrghghhghhhhhhhhh

Saturdays

Saturdays used to be my doll-up days. Filled with dates and heart flutters.

Accompanied with excitement and filled with make-up and fragrances.

Dinners used to be free, followed by movies.. 

Once in a while, we would roam the city in search 

of the hottest spot in town.

Now it's just filled with papers, and test, and assignments.

I really missed those days...

Put on my best dress and feel pretty.

I will make sure my life is all pretty on Saturdays.

 =)

Happy Saturday peeps!!

We are still receiving 70 cents for ever dollar that a man receives.

What say you?

An inch away

  Graduation pictures taken!!! One step closer to reality.

How would you label yourself vs how others would label you.

Do you know yourself well enough? If yes, how much. And if you do, i am sure your life is 90% in control and we leave the 10% out for the things that are out of control. Meaning to say, you know what makes you happy, you know what you want and what to expect from what you sowed. You know whom make the best out of you and etc.

Are you an introvert or extrovert? A leader or follower, does your brain works harder on the left or right side? What characteristic do you posses? Are you an optimist or pessimist? Do you look at things with feelings or realistically?

Well, i just attended my friends wedding a few days back, and the wedding is, how would i put it? Warm, very romantic, it has the right people and the ambiance was just perfect. But there was a little something about the wedding that made me felt very uncomfortable.

Half way whilst dinner was served, the maid-of-honor and the best-man, went up the stage and played a game. This game was meant for the couple to get to know each other better. They asked questions like, who is the early bird, who washes the dishes more often, who cooks more often, who is a better cook, who is more emotional, who is the one to kiss-and-make-up, who is with the bad temper, who irons the clothes at home, who wears the pants in the relationship.

I felt uncomfortable, simply because, i feel that no matter how you portray yourself to your friends, colleagues, or sometimes family members. It is very very different, how you portray yourself with your partner. I felt that these questions were a little too personal. Well, my friends is a witty, strong-willed, passionate, opinionated girl, and from what i can see her partner is a more homey guy, who cooks more often, who irons the clothes...
As you can see, there is a clash of personality- and isn't it great these two very different people are coming together in the name of love??

So how do would you label yourself? does is equate to how people see you?

How would you label me?

Tribute

R.I.P Amy Winehouse.

Why Don't You?

Feed your life,

by living

your dreams.

Last Weekend.

Hey peeps, last weekend was really crazy.

After my birthday i headed back to hometown to attend my

friend's wedding. 

It was BEAUTIFUL.. 

Weddings are always beautiful...

Anyways this is a silly picture of me.. after everything was done,

they brought out party favors, and it was so much fun!!

My fav dress at the moment!! =)

How was your weekend?

Hope it was as fun as mine..

Well, it's all work no play for now.. 

Happy Monday!

Post Something.

Happy Tuesday!!

And its not a happy Tuesday...

Why would anyone, steal my under garments. and Ladies, it's the most beautiful and dreamy ones!!!
I wanted to put it on this morning and realized its not there, so i checked my whole room, and the dirty clothes, and the washing machine... it's not to be found. If you are a lady and you stole mine, shame on you. If you're a guy and you stole mine, double shame on you.

I am so angry... and later, just too sad to even start my day. Anyway life goes on.
Bye bye beautiful.  :( Bad Tuesday.

Principle Figgins grooving...



EPIC!!!!!!!!
hahhahah =)

Why Don't You?

Listen to your 
own voice-
and learn to 
trust it.

=)

Feel Pretty Already... =)

Happy Monday Peeps!!!

=)

Life is like that Part 2.

When size 6 is too small and size 8 is too big.

......

Imperfections- life is like that.

 I saw this beautiful heels a few days ago,

 and absolutely am in love with it.

But..

so near yet so far...

so i kissed them goodbye.

Peeps, i am imperfect, so imperfect that

my shoe size is 35 and 37..

i am able to wear some labels effortlessly, but

most of the time, i can't buy beautiful shoes, 

because i have to buy 2 different sizes.

(we know that there's a high price to pay for vanity- so does beautiful shoes)

Happy Friday Peeps, 

no classes for me, but i have to study..

test, test, test, and more test!!!

OOWWHH

YEAH BABY..

IT'S

FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

=D

A quick pick me up song!!

Is this amazing or is this amazing.

=D

Me,Myself and I.

Do you ever feel that you are so different from others?

I do. All the time. Sometimes people think i am really weird and funny, but i can't be bothered most of the time. But sometimes i do, especially when people don't accept me for who i am, and expects me to conform to normality. I have tried to be 'normal' as in, do things the way it 'should' be done, react the way i should react. Sometimes i should remain silent and know my place, as a woman.

It feels fake. I feel cheap. It makes me want to rip my heart off my chest, because the level of self-deception is so over-powering. So i don't make myself conform anymore. I like that i am loud, around those i am comfortable with, and very silent if i might know you, and if my day feels right, i might give strangers a big whopping smile. I am so different, i stand out like a sore thumb and i like it that way.

When i see a table made of unpolished wood, i see beauty and uniqueness. When i stand in a field with green pastures, i feel loved and relaxed. When the wind is blowing, it is like a song in my ear. Listening to orchestra is like a beautiful story, sometimes which makes me cry. When a song plays, i don't listen to the lyrics the first time around, but the beat and the key of the song... through those factors- i can almost feel what the singer/composer is feeling.
I love to cook, and sometimes i don't really enjoy eating as much as preparing the food itself.. to me its like art, and i really appreciate those who can enjoy food as well as me, because food is just food to people, but when i eat something, i can tell you what is that particular dish whipped up off.
I am happy to see butterflies and ladybugs, and sometimes when i am taking in all the beauty of this world. Makes me want to cry.

It doesn't only happen to beautiful things, but also negative things in life, when failure sometimes might seem like the end of road. Sometimes i try so hard and i don't get there, i feel like just lying down and giving up.
I could really get impatient with silly people and just be crazier than them. I really feel horrible when, i really tried, but the only thing that is running toward me is disappointment, and the worst is getting so sad with what you see in life, that the only feeling you ever capable of feeling is anger.

I have all these feelings, and my high seems so much higher, and my lows feels so much lower.
Every emotion, sensation, smell, touch, is heighten to a higher level. It makes me feel alive... and it makes me feel like i am living every moment of my life despite being caught in the rat race. It is almost like a luxury to me to be able to bask in all the wonderful things and ugly side of life. Makes me feel like i am human, and by the end of my life, i have gone above and beyond and have felt every thrill, emotion, sensation that i could have ever feel in my life.

Or am i just sensitive..... over-sensitive..... dramatic? maybe

I am embracing it- it is a beautiful gift. =)

Memories

Has a bird ever pecked you?

I remember once, when i was hardworking and pretty determined to stay fit and fit into my closet of beautiful clothes. I use to wake up in the morning, like 6 am.... and go jogging. I have to always make sure i tight my hair low and tight so that it wouldn't be in my face when i am running, and i always pinned up my fringe.

Normally i would use a normal black pin, but that particular day i used a green one. And after running like 30 minutes, i was a little tired.. and i started walking instead. And from afar, i saw a big black bird, flying toward me..... so i didn't really bother about it, i mean, there are hundreds of birds in the sky, flying pass me.

BUT....

When it was approaching me, and the next time i knew, it pecked my head.

 GOD, let me tell you.... i really don't know what its beak is made of, but it hurt like hell.

And i busy wondering why it pecked my head, and then.....

From the back, it flew past me again, to peck my head again, i am like,

 "WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Isssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

goinGGGGGGGGGGGGG

ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

So i ran home..... fast! And i was so puzzled, and then when i took off my hair pin, it's GREEN.

Maybe the bird thought it was a wriggling worm!!!

Can you see that the swam in nearer to me in the 2nd pic,
It snapped my hand and it hurt!!

Beautiful but naughty swan!!!

EXAM   FEVER,   literally.

ppffttt.

I miss this cartoon...

What cartoon did you used to watch when you were little??
This was my favorite one, along with little lulu... =)

Oh man.

 i really

really really

miss

trekking 

and 

mountain climbing..

Valentino Resort Collection 2012

Valentino Resort Collection 2012

Marchesa Resort Collection 2012

Alexander McQueen Resort Collection 2012

Elie Saab Fall 2011 Collection.

 Aren't these just beautiful and to die for? Hmmmm.
 More pretty photos from here and here.
 The gown from Alexander McQueen is ......... aaaaahhhhh

Let my brain work this time.

How do you stand still and look at the person next to you making all the wrong decisions in life?

How do you just be silent when the person next to you is just reaching only for the ceiling in the house?

Or do you just close your eyes and pretend not to see and care?

I am frustrated with people making the same mistakes, running away again and again,

from reality, from what really works in the world.

How people can just lie for their own conveniences.

and all i want to do is knock some sense into their brains.

How do you deal with the mentally-challenged?

How would you make them see things

in like 100 dimensions?

How would you deal with it?

Sit and watch, or close your eyes.

Or do something which would eventually make yourself

feel like a fool in the end.

Or am I just wasting my precious time.

Stormy Thursday

I was so excited to go to uni today. I have a presentation to do...
So i got prepared... and when i stepped out of my building.

It was raining cats and dogs, leaving me impossible to even run in the rain.
So i had to ask my friend to cover for me this time.

Anyways, now i have more time to study for my test next week.
* I wished i had an oven here, so i can bake my favorite chocolate cake*

Hows your Thursday coming along?
Hope it is pleasant!! =)

Ikea

Ooohhh Aahhhh

My sis and I went to Ikea a few days ago.

We have been meaning to go since like... forever,

and finally got our asses over there.

I love the meatballs and ice cream there!!! 

=)

Why Don't You?

Just let 

yourself go

and be 

free

Waitinggggggggggg.... =D

Helloo!!! I'm back at home for the weekend and totally feel like whipping up a great chocolate cake... so i made *drum rolls*

 Julia Child’s Reine de Saba  .........

(totally addicted to Julie and Julia movie)

It's in the oven now and it smells totally amazing!!! 

You should try it too.. i got the recipe from HERE.

 I wish i can share my cake with you, but sorry. hehehe =)

Update:

It doesn't look that good, because i'm using my phone.. but its beyond  gooddddddddddd!!!