Do you ever....

 Feel like giving up. Note, it is not a question. It is a statement.
 Do you ever feel alone, on this journey although you have so many friends and close one around you.
 It's like a silent, black and white movie. People moving around me, there's laughter, sadness, excitement, life..
 But i am always on a stand-still. Looking and watching these people around me.

 I constantly feel i am walking this road alone. ( Alone- not lonely) Aren't we all? i guess not.
 I have one question, is this normal.
 I feel that i am constantly out there, giving my all, striving for the best, trying the hardest, being the
 most critical, always am the first to take initiative.

 I am exhausted. I feel that i am alone, i feel bare, like ... silly. I feel so silly that i am the only one trying so
 hard, and i feel exposed. I thought we were a team. Why do i constantly feel that i have to take the first step?
 Why do i always feel that people are just talking for the sake of it, and not thinking at all.
 Why does no one think of the big stuffs ? Is it really that exhausting?
 I feel like a leader all the time, if i do A, then people will do A too. But i have to do it FIRST, so that people
 will follow. And the frustrating part it, shouldn't we all make the same amount of initiative?

 Or am i too fast and too much? Is this how leaders really feel - i am definitely not a follower, i never sit
 around and wait, and follow other's footsteps..Am i really set aside for greater paths?
 Or does it really show how lazy people are and how they don't really care about what we're suppose to
 produced.

I AM CONSTANTLY FEELING LIKE THIS :

What do you think? Or am i just too much ?
I feel like i have the power, to change things, IF i take that step.
Its like i can see 100 steps ahead...
Aarrrghghhghhhhhhhhh