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Lights

Look for the light and follow it, they say.

Lights come in various forms and dimension. 

Some are dim and pleasing to the eye. 

Others are blinding and promises the world.

If you are looking out for light, which do you follow?

Follow your instincts. Close your eyes and listen to your heart.

Not every ray is your destiny. Some are concealed lies. They do not last.

They come to entice you with their beauty. But it fades away.

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For Christmas Dinner

With a bra!

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How To Be Brave.

JUST

DO 

IT

Be Happy!

Have a lovely weekend !

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Up, Down, Left, Right

Major update, I haven't written in a while. Sorry for the absence.

Well, I'm adjusting to a new job. A whole new scope to dive into. Makes me feel jittery sometimes. So excited to learn about new things. Things- I can conquer. They are usually methodical and don't require much effort once you perfect the steps and procedures.

Human beings on the other hand, is the ultimate challenge. So far in these few weeks, I have been thoroughly disappointed. But hey, each career comes with different set of challenges. I know that for sure. Let's just put it this way, now I really understand the generation gap. As we all progress, into the century, yes time has change. But then why does it feel like time is the only thing that is changing or has changed. The old methods are still maintained. Where seniority matters, and only bosses are right. I can't help but ponder at this weird situation I am placed in.

I'm quite modern, I think. I find it difficult to work hand in hand with people whom I can't see eye to eye with. I mean these are successful businessmen, how can they, who are so far-sighted, be so short-sighted at the same time?

I have been told to adapt. I could, but I will choose not to. I'm quite good with adaptations, but not to bad methods which is not so applicable anymore.

I have been reading Good Boss Bad Boss, in preparation to lead my people better. It has taught me alot. This is book is 'placed' in my office, however i wonder if anyone touched it as the pages smells of a brand new book. Am I expectating too much here? For a well-mannered, fine-tempered, not so emotional boss - note that I'm a lady. And if I can say that a man is too emotional. He is almost close to zero emotional intelligience.

At the end of the day. We choose our own challenges. Do I want to choose this challenge. Would it help me increase my patience level? In a good way or bad way. What can I gain from this? Experience is the only thing we gain when we don't get what we want.

Am i going to be happy here. Too fast to judge. Nonetheless, I am still excited to go to work. Each day i learn something new from every dimension of life - like a rubber band. The more I see, listen, learn and feel the more season I become. And I really like that.

Well like today, I learnt, that, everyone could be a boss. But not everyone is a good boss.

xoxo
Cheers lovelies! 

When ALL the beer is gone.

Hence, no writing. Just thinking. 

Why Don't You?

"Stay hungry,

Stay foolish."  

                                                                -Steve Jobs

Happiness is..

1. Playing in the rain.
2. Travelling and exploring.
3. Dancing like how i like it.
4. Reading a heart-stirring book.
5. Cooking for love ones.
6. Awesome movies.
7. Lovely music for the soul.
8. A shared chocolate cake or ice-cream.
9. Good and fattening food. Always.
10. Not bothered of what others think of me.
11. New shoes.
12. Feeling the wind in my face.
13. Sloppy kisses from my dog.
14. Red tulips.
15. Bubble baths. 

Work coming at me as soon 

as I get into the office today.

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When I can't answer the question paper.

Wishlist

I read the reviews. I think it's gonna be a good one. If you are thinking what to get me something. Why not get me this book? It doesn't have to wait till Christmas! ;)

Happy Weekend!

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Feeling glad.

Absolutely honest and frank write up about dating. And super funny.

This kind of video always stirs up something in me.

Dynamic duo always make me feel so glad. awesome playlist.

Phenomenal performance !!

Cant wait for this.

Watch this - spot on and hilarious.

Breathtaking architecture.

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Question.

Do we really grow up?

Or 

Do we just grow old..

Stuck in my head.

Is Good Enough?

When he buys me something i like, i get all jumpy. If he suggest we go have our favorite ice-cream i will almost jump for joy, and i will jump if there's sprinkles on it. If he makes me breakfast, I will just sit and marvel at his face...... Worldly things, nice once in a while, but not sufficient for me.

Define good. What does it even mean to you. When he knows his way to your heart? Or knows how to love you, in simple words - ignore you and just go with the flow when you're being crazy. 

Is good enough. Question Mark. 

Allow me to be honest with you. No woman should desire to have a "good" man. I desire, a broken-hearted man, a changed man. For some, a "good" man could mean he says nice things, gives her gifts and appreciates her family. However, I desire a man who is willing to pray with me and for me, lay down his life constantly for me, and give up any worldly enjoyments he may have and become uncomfortable for my comforts. I desire a man to make my way easy and take on the burden that may be placed on my shoulders. Its should not be enough that he is "good". 

That should never be enough. Don't ever settle for less.

But breakfast for me is .... fireworks in my heart.

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A shoutout A whisper

How are you doing? Sorry for the lack of updates. I have been so busy lately with ... absolutely nothing. :)

Things have been going pretty well for me. How are you holding up? 

I have been travelling back and forth between KL and SG, spending precious time with loved ones. Everyone seems to want a piece of me. And it's so difficult to multitask between all these beautiful souls. But isn't that what life is all about, prioritizing important people and things. But it's so difficult to choose who to spend my time with, and so difficult to let everyone get a piece of me because its time consuming and energy draining. I've learnt to just go with it anyway because time never stops running. I have been saying 'no time, no time' to alot of precious people and the more times i utter those words the more disgusted i feel with myself.

So no more 'no time', just better time planning. But sometimes i really don't have the time. Like what i'm doing to this blog. 

Something to think about:

I can't help but notice how most young parents teach their toddlers or control them. Using the one thing that is not right. Terror. I'm not a parent and i don't know how difficult it is, but i know enough that i can't handle one right now. I think using terror is not right. Honestly i think authority and power comes from firmness and properly assertion, definitely not from yelling or terrorizing the kid with the cane. Heard of the 'tiger mom' book? Read it. Interesting but not for me. 

Soon i'll be put in a place where i have to exert firmness and proper assertion. I have so much to learn still, being a leader is no joke. No doubt i know i can do it, but the learning curve is going to be so steep. You can expect nothing, not even white noise from this blog.

But till then, take care. And with much love. Have a wonderful wonderful day..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The pen is mightier than the sword.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ever felt smaller than a word used to describe you? Most probably all of us have. Felt inferior to the adjectives people use to label us.

 

If you are a wise person, you will definitely know the power of words and how it can help to shape and mould a person's persona,character, his mentality, and of course his future. You have no idea, how good it feels to encourage and to be the positive spark in someone's life.

 

Always choose to uphold somebody with kind words. It doesn't cost a thing.

 

 

 

Why don't you

 

 

 

 

 

 

Forget the past. Forget your age. 

Today is the first day of the rest of your life. 

At the end of it,

let there be no excuses, no explanations, and no regrets.

 

 

 

 

 

Speaks Volume



Act 2 of La Traviata

Patrick Kinmonth

Splendour and Grandeur

 

 

 

 

Uber Cute!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Right-brain VS left-brain.

"One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving." - Paulo Coelho



I was just pondering about the quote above. I it made me stop and think for a bit.

Emotions right, because you feel like it.. so no real reason behind what you're feeling or you want to do. If you want to love, you love. Because you can. Or is it just because we are utilising the 'right-brain' more... which is said to be more intuitive,thoughtful and subjective?

I can relate to that, answering to all the jitters love has to offer.

But my left-brain tells me the quote above is just good writing. To create a stir of emotions in the heart. Just being melancholic and nostalgic.

Why do you love?
Because you can? Because you are infactuated with the persona? Because you are feeling lonely? Or because the time has come. Not everyone is for this journey. Love is a big word.

What is love anyway? How would you describe it? Is it that feeling that you wake up everyday knowing you have someone who cares about you? Is it kisses and hugs? Is it walking hand-in-hand?
Or a shared piece of cheese cake?
Or you could look at it this way. Its hardcore commitment - mentally,emotionally, physically. Maybe just plain sacrifice. Perhaps gratitude. Or you love because the other party makes you feel safe. Or you love because you want a witness to your life.
Love is a big word. Sometimes overwhelming.

There you go, for trying to explain love. I'm a fool. I'm a well centered-brain person. Guess where all the wisdom came from?


"The wise are wise only because they love. The fool are fools only because they think they can understand love." - Paulo Coelho.






 

Can't Wait

When i stepped into the light

Clear blue skies are ahead of me. The storm is of yester-years. I'm glad, today, i had some balls.
To want to change my future. I did it.

I feel so unsafe now, so not in my comfort zone. And i'm going to make all of it into my comfort zone.

I took a leap of faith. It shook me, made my heart tremble a little. But i did it. And i am glad.

Delicate

My hiding space.

 

 

 

I would do everything. legal. 

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Drowning in my dreams.

Lately I have been cruising.. Just letting my life and days cruise by. Because i'm afraid to move, to change it, to mold it according to my mind maps. And as disgusted i'm with myself for letting that happen to me, i am glad too.

I have been just dreaming, waiting for it to happen to me. Just hoping i don't have to work hard for the life i have planned myself. And a few days ago, i just sat down thinking and thinking.. and just got so sick of not making things work, when I know i can move mountains someday, not today or tomorrow but i know someday soon.

So what was I actually afraid of? Was it failure? I guess you could say so. But mostly i would say i didn't move my ass because i was too cautious. I wanted to make sure that it was the 'right time', the 'right thing' and of course the 'right move', on whether it suited me or not. Well, I most certainly know that there is no such thing as the right time or right move. I just got to do it. However, i also know that there is such thing as luck and amazing opportunity knocking at the door just at the 'right time' - if you know what i mean.

But i'm gonna work hard for the future i have in mind.. I'm gonna embark on a new journey, a very significant one in fact. I'm so excited for myself, and, you, my dear readers, if i ever lose hope or side track. Please do not hesitate to nudge me back into the right track.

Great things are coming my way. :)
Almost can feel it coming. Wish me luck.

So much love for you guys.

Are You H.A.P.P.Y ?

"Happiness isn't being cheerful all the time," says John Sharp, a psychiatrist and Harvard Medical School. "It's being interested in things—finding out more about something, learning how to appreciate something better, incorporating something new that fits with what you already have."



 

Why Don't You

 

 

 

 

 

 

KISS

THE

RAIN.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Take A Leap Of Faith.

You know something, i realized that something things should have been easier in life. I was talking to a friend, he mentioned that if things are meant to be for you, it will be smooth sailing, almost perfect.

At first i disagree, i think i disagreed way too fast without thinking. I mentioned that if you want something, sometimes it is harder to get it. {Hello! - forces of nature!} Naturally things won't come to you easily when you want it the most.

Then he went on to explain that if you have to put so much effort for something 'regular' or something 'normal', at the end of the day you have to ask yourself if it even worth the effort. For something 'regular'. Then he went on to say its better to leave, and something that is naturalling effortless will come along.

I kept my mouth shut later. Because it made so much sense, but sometimes i know you have to struggle in order to obtain something. And often we still don't get the end results/product that we desire so much in the beginning. So we just take away the experience from the journey.Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. { Does this means that i am experienced }. However experience is also the most valuable thing anyone can offer.

So are there things in life, which are not working out miraculously for you? Is it worth the effort and time? Are the things you pursuing even worth pursuing. After this conversation with my friend, i have to admit that there are so many things i have to check again if its even worth pursuing.

Knowing what is worthy of my time is one thing, having the balls to eliminate it and move on in life is a whole different thing.. I really want to take a leap of faith.

Have A Pretty Friday!

 

 

 

 

What a pretty little girl!

Have A Pretty Friday & Weekend.

 

 

 

 

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So nice!!! So much thought and effort put into it!

Valentino Spring 2013

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Reality + some hormones.

You know that amazing feeling, of being wanted and being cared about? - It sometimes makes my day. Infatuation is it.

Hardly remember the feeling of falling in love. If i remember correctly, it was sweet smelling, rather warm, makes me flutter and stutter and blush. And it made the imperfect world seem impeccably perfect.

I remember love. And how hard it was staying around it, in it, on it. How mundane it actually is. Love is like a warm blanket - protects and comforts everyday. But it is especially appreciated when you need it the most. Other days you forget how to appreciate the blanket.

I'm afraid of it. I'm so in control right now that i'm so afraid to lose my balance. To be unglued.
But i know i can never outsmart getting hurt. Neither i could ever be ready to face it. But i think i'm letting go for a bit. So i can savour life.


Love for all of you! xoxo

 

When A Cute Guy Smiles At Me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Decisions,decisions,decisions.

It is my destiny to choose.
Seems so difficult when i'm spoilt with a million options.
The sky is the limit.





 

Dennis Basso Spring 2013, NY

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Imposed Impact.

Many teachers have come and gone in my span of life, but there are a few who stays in my heart.
A teachers' job is not only to educate from the book - but also, to me, to impart all that she knows - to equit me for the world out there.

And i remember my headmistress in high school. She didn't teach me anything but was just a beauty to look at. Always glowed with such kindness, glamour - just by the way the graced through the corridors of the school. I was always awed by the way the carried herself - always calm and composed. Looked ordinary but glowed with such beauty in my eyes.

I remember that our entire school was going to throw her a farewell party for the retirement. The whole school was involved - yes, she was that important. I didn't know what to get her. I didn't want to get her the norm, you know the flowers and cards, or something predictable. So what i did was, i had an empty tape - and i recorded all my fav oldies into the tape. Wrapped it up with a pretty ribbon and i passed it to her.

At one point i asked myself if she would ever like it.

A few years after, i'm all grown up right. And we met at a cosmetic counter. And i approach her - still such a beauty. And i introduced myself ( bear in mind that she doesn't know me personally at all ), and she said, " I know you, i loved your present - it stood out. I appreciate it Vanessa"  - she called me by my name.

And i hope everyday i find ways to leave a trail behind. A beautiful one.




 

Miss this boy.

He just had a birthday not too long ago. Miss this face so much. and his hugs, and his love . his pure love.
And his loyalty. I have to go home soon to spend some lovely time with this ball of love.

The many faces of her.

 Happy 21st Birthday Rachel!

I love you, and you are the best sister in the world.

And you have the most beautiful soul.