Laziness.

I'm too lazy to think of what to write. But i still have to come up with something.

I'm finally starting work - after soooo many interviews. I'm just a {little} picky. You know sometimes, in fact all interview sessions - they don't look at any of my papers. I think when they see my face they just want to hire me (!!!). It's frustrating for me - why in the world study then? Such a waste of time and money and effort. But honestly understand that at the end of the day its all about being able to produce the end results. However, i am really glad that at the end of the day, the choice remains with me if i want to work with them - and its hard to choose sometimes. Nonetheless i'm most grateful that the words spoken from my mouth has matched the value of my face and brain.

So finally-lah, i thought i would start having colleagues. But No - fate is a funny thing. I work alone in the whole office. Awesome yeah? Awesomeness redefined.

I'm a little excited and perplexed- i have to wear skirts everyday. And i honestly didn't know how much i don't wear them until i noticed the ratio of my pants to skirts is 10:1. Its a good thing.. i will finally learn to be lady like and sit properly.

You know sometimes i really have this bad habit... i really like to self-sabotage. I have many evil thoughts in my head asking me not to sign the offer letter.. so i can sleep at home and just remain there for the rest of my life with Mr. Brown. You know he has been the most awesome-st friend i have.

Sometimes he knows i get lonely - so he never leaves my side.When days are exceptionally grey - he even sits in the bathroom with me while i bathe.. Sometimes i leave him downstairs to nap so i could get some work done upstairs..and a few minutes later i can feel his cold and moist snout pressing against the back of my knee - reminding me he is always there. Sometimes when i leave for a night out he runs after my car - as i drive away i feel like a monster. Truly has been a companion these past few months. And he would be my biggest worry when i leave for work. I can't be walking him anymore, or play with him or just be with him.

Sometimes i think he feels better when i just be with him. If he could ever talk i wondered what he would say to me.

P/S : He did already went for a second op but it was unsuccessful. It makes me feel more attached to him than i already am. But i am just glad he is alive and happy. He loves me so much, sometimes it makes me want to cry.

Anyways i decided to not self-sabotage - its been far too long since my brains have worked.
Love to all of you.

“The greatest thing is, at any moment, to be willing to give up who we are in order to become all that we can be.”
 --Max De Preen

A little red dress..

Micheal Kors Fall 2012

Micheal Kors Fall 2012

Valentino 2011

Of Red Roses and Heart-shaped Boxes!!

Hey peeps, what's hanging? I've been away for quite a while now- things have been a little out of perspective. It actually took me quite a while to come up with this post.

14/2. Everyone is pretty hyped up about it. It's all about the love baby! Honestly, really, too much emphasis on this day - overshadows the real (simple!) meaning of it. Love is definitely one of the most beautiful i have experienced-swells the heart. Even just by talking about it. There are indeed times in life where love does conquer all, and then there are also times when love brings nothing but pain and misery.

Love is patient , Love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

I never really knew the true meaning of this verse until my capacity and ability to love grew deeper each day. Changed my perspective on what real love is. Real lasting love, is definitely not only for partners, but definitely for parents, siblings, friends and pets!

Undoubtedly one of the most beautiful thing, also the hardest to master. Often enough, with an inflated soul of our own importance, we listen only for the echo of our own voice and look only for the reflection of our own intent. Real love calls us to be patient, and kind and selfless. Remember that love can also suffer pain of betrayal, separation and irreconcilable differences ceasing to work for the good of the other party. 

So this year around, pledge to love better all year round- to understand and love those who are not like us/ more difficult than ourselves- to love our parents,siblings, partner, and friends all year long. Be a truly loving person to the people around us- and also to those we deem undeserving as well.

P/S : I have always dreaded V-Day. No cheesy songs, bouquet or expensive dinner (Everyone does that and i can't feel special or loved!) I would prefer pizzas and beers, with a comedy DVD playing- lots of laughter and warm hugs. Or maybe a long walk to please my dog and wet sloppy kisses from him. Perhaps a kinder-bueno hazelnut cream chocolate bar tied with a pretty ribbon seals the deal. (Now- am i easily pleased or what!?)

A little Jazz love!

What is your idea of V-Day? Now have a fabulous day! =)

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