Anti-aging cream please.

Well well well, here I am. 26.

Aside from the fact that I used to have triple the amount of energy 3 years ago.
I feel good. Really good about life.

Where do I go, and what will I see in the next coming year? Curious as ever. The best part is that the future is not known, in other terms, anything can happen. The sky is the limit. This very feeling excites me to the core. It's another adventure.

Every year, on this day I evaluate my adventure. How have I evolved over the past year.

Last's years birthday was still fresh in my memory. I guess I have evolved alot. 21,22,23,24,25. I am definitely a very different person back compared to today. And I'm so glad for the me today. I am more in control, more positive, more aggressive, less rigid, more laid-back and definitely happier.

What I'm looking forward in the coming year. Is to

1) Constantly educate myself.
2) Always always treat people with respect, give them their space and to accept that everyone is different.
3) Pay it forward. With much love.
4) Take care of my health. Exercise. Cook more often. Get enough rest.
5) Always self-examine and learn from mistakes and going beyond it.
     - my thoughts, mannerism, words, work ethics.

And you my readers, please remind time to time about the 5 goals and do not hesitate from asking me if I'm implementing it in my daily life or how am I progressing. Please also remind me to always remain a kid. On how to love conditionally, laugh freely and loudly, and of course to dance to which ever track in playing in my life.

Absolutely amazing birthday. It just gets better every year. :) It's like I cannot wait to get old, to accumulate all these beautiful moments and experience and be the best person I can ever be, with time. It's gonna be a long wayyyy. :) Here's to life!!

So much love; have a pleasant weekend!

Why Don't You

Just
Let
It 
be

&

 Breathe

Feeling,being,becoming.

You know, that little voice in your head which you cannot tame - has successfully gotten into my head and stayed there for hours now. I have tried to reason with that 'voice' to a point, to many points. And now I have no outlet to release this cloud of thoughts. I really want to run in the rain right now- but there's no rain right now and it would be very mad of me to run right now.

I have been through this again and again and I'm honestly getting a little annoyed with myself. I have successfully allowed that voice to doubt my capabilities, abilities and my self-worth. I feel hollow. I have many world things and according to the worldly - o - meter, I have passed. Big time.

What did I miss while going through this all the other times. I'm sure I have missed something.  I want to go beyond this point. I'm very sure the repeated experiences are to teach me something I do not want to learn. 

So much easier said than done. 

Life is a game, of will, speed and wit, accompanied with many failures and highlighted moments of success. And I accept that life is all about trying and being. But at this point - I am totally clueless how to go about this. 

I have booked that flight to paradise. I have forgiven my past lovers. I told my heart to love freely and unconditionally. I have commanded my brains to work better. My legs are running further and faster. My belly with happier with the food I feed it. I drink in beautifully written books. I enjoy my chocolate cake like a boss. I have laughed louder and harder. I have cried more and meant all my tears. I have helped just because. I appreciate every sunrise I have seen. I have felt the rain on my skin. 

Yet this hole. Inside me. Is. like. A. Big. Deluge.

And the best part? It comes with different times, in waves that varies in tidal lengths, sizes and duration. I do not recognise it because it has no one exact shape or face. It appears and vanishes at different points in my life, involving different people and in different circumstances. I'm feeling vexed with all these thoughts when I'm supposed to be resting. Life is beautiful, one way or another.

10 things

Well hello;

1) I have been working for 12 days straight without rest. My body is now immune to exhaustion.

2) Finally taking a break to see my best buddy. 

3) I am too busy. to. even. cook.clean. or to do laundry.

4) I NEED A big IDEA FOR A special day.

5) I want to take time off; to go for a long post-phoned holiday by the beach ; with a peach cocktail.

6) I miss watching the stars. I should make time for that.

7) I have been thinking alot about running the WORLD.

8) Awkward moment when my boss talks to me about sex scenes from Games of Thrones. WEIRD!

9) I love my mom and dad and brothers and sister and doggie. And myself.

10) I'm happy,  feeling gleeful, and delighted, and pumped up with ambitious energy. And I am sad as well ; for some reasons. Isn't life beautiful just the way is it?

      - Y E S ! ! !

Adoration.

I love that I get to see the sunrise every morning; watching the colours in the sky change makes me feel blessed. I love honest people, honest emotions. I love the look on peoples face when they get something they want. I love how emotional people get when their favourite character dies. I love the smell of freshly cut grass; and how I am totally immersed with my inner child when I’m playing in the rain. 

I love that I laugh out loud so much – to the extend it annoys people enough for them to call me silly and crazy. I love the moment when I close my eyes and get drifted to somewhere.. into the clouds. I love seeing new places and travelling. I love eating and cooking.I definitely love maths and arts at the same time.

I love people who admit they are weak. I love individuals who are different – they somehow let me  be who I truly am inside. I love that I am not strong all the time, I love that I feel both extremes of emotions. I love that I breakdown sometimes and I love that I am so macho sometimes. I love that I sometimes have all the answers; and yet can be totally clueless as well.

I love that everything is so unpredictable. 

I love that I love myself; well of course there are days I do not. But I do somehow.

Hello and Good bye

you can find me at www.vanessachua.com

I will still be updating; here and there. :)

Thanks a million for reading!