Magical Moments.

I like to star gaze. The only chance I get to do it.. is actually when I'm out of town.
Because there;s no chance of seeing anything in the sky with that level of light and air pollution.

And when I was just staring at the sky for almost 2 hours.

A shooting star.

With the vast dark but clear sky as the backdrop. Along with many other stars.
Was indeed a very magical moment.

Witnessing it, awoke my broken spirit. Makes me feel a little more alive - like something bigger and more interesting is out there for me to explore. For me to waste time on. Other than my world things.

I, of course made a wish.

I wished that I could love more, love better.

Me,Myself and I.

Do you ever feel that you are so different from others?

I do. All the time. Sometimes people think i am really weird and funny, but i can't be bothered most of the time. But sometimes i do, especially when people don't accept me for who i am, and expects me to conform to normality. I have tried to be 'normal' as in, do things the way it 'should' be done, react the way i should react. Sometimes i should remain silent and know my place, as a woman.

It feels fake. I feel cheap. It makes me want to rip my heart off my chest, because the level of self-deception is so over-powering. So i don't make myself conform anymore. I like that i am loud, around those i am comfortable with, and very silent if i might know you, and if my day feels right, i might give strangers a big whopping smile. I am so different, i stand out like a sore thumb and i like it that way.

When i see a table made of unpolished wood, i see beauty and uniqueness. When i stand in a field with green pastures, i feel loved and relaxed. When the wind is blowing, it is like a song in my ear. Listening to orchestra is like a beautiful story, sometimes which makes me cry. When a song plays, i don't listen to the lyrics the first time around, but the beat and the key of the song... through those factors- i can almost feel what the singer/composer is feeling.
I love to cook, and sometimes i don't really enjoy eating as much as preparing the food itself.. to me its like art, and i really appreciate those who can enjoy food as well as me, because food is just food to people, but when i eat something, i can tell you what is that particular dish whipped up off.
I am happy to see butterflies and ladybugs, and sometimes when i am taking in all the beauty of this world. Makes me want to cry.

It doesn't only happen to beautiful things, but also negative things in life, when failure sometimes might seem like the end of road. Sometimes i try so hard and i don't get there, i feel like just lying down and giving up.
I could really get impatient with silly people and just be crazier than them. I really feel horrible when, i really tried, but the only thing that is running toward me is disappointment, and the worst is getting so sad with what you see in life, that the only feeling you ever capable of feeling is anger.

I have all these feelings, and my high seems so much higher, and my lows feels so much lower.
Every emotion, sensation, smell, touch, is heighten to a higher level. It makes me feel alive... and it makes me feel like i am living every moment of my life despite being caught in the rat race. It is almost like a luxury to me to be able to bask in all the wonderful things and ugly side of life. Makes me feel like i am human, and by the end of my life, i have gone above and beyond and have felt every thrill, emotion, sensation that i could have ever feel in my life.

Or am i just sensitive..... over-sensitive..... dramatic? maybe

I am embracing it- it is a beautiful gift. =)

Valentino Resort Collection 2012

Valentino Resort Collection 2012

Marchesa Resort Collection 2012

Alexander McQueen Resort Collection 2012

Elie Saab Fall 2011 Collection.

 Aren't these just beautiful and to die for? Hmmmm.
 More pretty photos from here and here.
 The gown from Alexander McQueen is ......... aaaaahhhhh

I'm such a sucker for romance. (who's not?)

But where has it gone to?

It got lost along the way, from 300 miles away,

into our frustrations, and everyday task and tiredness...

how do you re-awaken things?

Is your partner romantic?? =)

Ohh Laa Laa

I just remembered that i promised to post pictures of my friends!!! Here you gooooooooo...

Was is good for you too?

Good Friday is fast approaching, some how its was like a million years away for me at the beginning of the challenge. Well, i challenged myself to be "softer".

There are days i failed terribly, sometimes i managed to be what i am challenging myself to be.
I don't have an attitude problem i just feel that i am way too blunt and straight, so i tried to be softer.
It was difficult, very difficult for me to be softer.

I sometimes wonder why i am so "shielded", i have no doubts that i am nice, *i don't bite- maybe sometimes*
i am super nice, so nice people take advantage of that part of me. It takes up my heart. Sometimes makes me feel worthless. So i shield myself. Put a wall between me and you, hence the 'hardness'. It is rare that i show the softer side of me in front of people. Hating to be seen weak, to be sympathized. Some how i see sympathy, sometimes "you deserve it" eyes. I now come with shieldSSSSS.

I have so much love for everyone. So much, i can hug everyone, give away my money, bake you cupcakes and macaroons every other day. Cook you awesome meals, and prepare burgers for you. I can also buy balloons for you and give you a " hope you have a nice day" kiss to everyone.I am so nice i walk the blind home from the train station.. I am so nice i can smile at everyone.I am so soft, i look at beautiful dogs and cry.
I am so soft i thank God for butterflies. And i think for this forty days, God has somehow touched my heart to be that person i was again. And its good because its nice to have someone who is nice and soft, instead of someone who is so busy with life, i don't know how to live and love.

Thank you God for touching my cold cold heart.
How was lent for you??
Good Friday is fast approaching,
He was judged like me,
for me.
Because He loved me.
Loves me.
Whose heart is bigger than his, who loves me at my worst.
Whose arms holds me when i am my weakest.
Whose strength is so great he carries my burden like an speck of dust.
Whose love exceeds beyond everything men can ever provide.
Whose warmth i can feel every night when i cry.
Whose faithfulness reaches the sky even when i forgot about Him.
Whose name i call out to when i am in the deep valley and when the seas are rough.

Of friends and smiles.. =)

I've never really talked about my friends, my good friends. 

The end of uni phase is fast approaching. This is it, i won't be seeing them everyday.

I will miss them terribly. Most of my friends are guy, except for one girl, the sweetest girl i have ever known.

Me and my friends, we are worlds apart. I am so ... leaning toward the western side, in terms of thoughts, my character, way of carrying myself, dressing, and in terms of culture. They are more hard core Chinese. And everyday our opinions, and wants and needs clashes, but it had been a tremendous beautiful time, besides the fact that my whole university is just a - blank-. 

So many smiles, so much breathless laughters, so much hardcore laughing we get stomach cramps.

So many frustrated times when we cannot get formulas, and theories, all exchanged for encouragements and food therapies. Movies and desserts always come after test, exams, and even when one of us gets an F.

So different, worlds apart, but i would say that, these are the friends, whom are worth keeping.

( If you follow my blogs, i have blogged about a few bad friends ).

In my whole journey, i have never felt any difference between a man and woman. We are all very equal.

I have never been put down, nor have i been judged. I have never came across a rude remark or comment from these guys. Its so pleasant i want to cringe just at the thought that i might not be seeing them as often.

There's no competition amongst us. Even the rich and poor are same.

How beautiful is that. It's pure friendship. 

I will post some pictures soon!!

Life is fair.

For there is so much bad, there is still so much good.
We don't realize it because we don't wanna see it.

For every tear drop you shed, there is, will be a full, stomach-tightening laughter you will experience.
For every hardship you go through, someday your life will be easier.
For every failure, you're a step closer to success.
For every setback in life you experience, you will come out stronger.
Every time your heart breaks, there will be a time it will be whole again.

Life is very fair, we are never short-changed. God doesn't short change us.
So, if you ever feel miserable, think of the blue skies above us.
Its just that we cannot see the bigger picture, and we will soon, in time.
Life is beautiful, all my good and bad times.

Broga Hills. =)

I managed to squeeze in some time for a little hike up a hill.

Its called Broga Hills situated in the outskirts of kl.

The scenery is just perfect, but a little too packed on weekends.

The Little secret place behind my house.

The seven little things hiding behind the bushes.

They are just so so so cute. =)

Mr. Wormy.

It's so beautiful there. :]

What a Beauty.

I was in the car, on my way back home to celebrate chinese new year.

My dad decided to avoid all other cars so we begun our journey at 5 in the morning.

Given the weather these days *its totally mad- it has been raining 2 days non stop*

the morning was still very dark up till about 7.15.

I was extremely tired but i can never sleep in journeys. 

So i lay my head back and look up into the sky... it was the most beautiful sight ever.

The city is often too polluted to have this beautiful sight.

Then i remember again, how small i am, and how magnificent and vast this world is.

It was really very very beautiful. I spend all the time looking at the stars.

Until the sunlight blocked them away.

I love sunsets, its beautiful. And i miss these places. Now that i am done with exams (for now)
I miss the beach and everything that's beautiful. Hopefully i get to capture more sunsets this holiday.
=)

Life is fragile, from the beginning to the end.

Skyline.

 

Batu Caves

Lookout Point

I love the sky.. but too often its too bright for me   to marvel at it, or most of the time, i am too busy to 

  notice the sky.. However, during my holidays,

  I had the chance to take a great look at it and

  click, click, click.

I am not really a fan of buildings, but the view at lookout point was just impressive.

Definitely a place to go with your partner, or else,

go enjoy the view with friends..

These pictures were taken at Kota Kinabalu,

Its just so pictorial and picturesque..

I feel so happy by just looking at it.

hahahhah... =D

Mount Kota Kinabalu

This is where my life begins.

The sky was beautiful, so was the sea, and the view from above was breath-taking.

Everything was so tiny from air. Clouds look like cotton candies hanging from the clear blue sky.

Huge oil tankers looked like pencils, islands looked like chocolate cubes... imagine me... i must be sooooo tiny...

So here i am, in Sabah, mentally and physically ready to climb Mount KK.

We reached the airport about 2, and had lunch.. we had some difficulty getting transports to fetch us to KK park which is about 2.5 hours from the airport.. nonetheless, we managed to get relatively cheap transport and reached KK park at 6pm. Our journey up was just... breathtaking. Beautiful, just something i needed, no buildings, no trains, no honking, no angry people... just the sky, clouds, clear cool air and loads of smiley people... =) We had dinner and went to bed early.

6th Oct

I woke up at 6 am, packed, had breakfast and at 7 sharp, left for the timpohon gate, all ready for my hike. The first 1 km was kinda relaxing, but after that, it was stairs all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyy.... and i thought i was ready for this!!!! CAPITAL oh M gee.

My arse has never felt so tight....... =P

But i didn't feel tired at all, was too busy drinking in the beauty of it all. The air was cool enough, and it made my hike comfortable. Kept on munching chocs for energy!!!

After hiking for about 5 hours, i reached the 6th km mark(Laban Rata) , where all of us would rest for a few hours and continue our hike up to the submit.

My legs were ok, hasn't turn into jelly yet, but i needed to rest. Just as i thought i could check in.... then i just realized i had to climb a little more to my room.................................................

AAARRRGGGGHHHHH, with all my strength i marched up and was glad, that i could rest a little.... I was drenched in rain and had to take a bath. GUESS WHAT, water heaters were not working......................................................... so i did take a bath... the water was like... a tiny mouse's tail, and i had to stand under the shower for ages to wash my hair..... by the time i finished bathing, i couldn't feel my toes or finger. I have died and rose again. Did i mention it was 10 degrees C??????????????????????????????

We had dinner at 5 and played cards till about 8pm and headed for the bed, as our climb begins at 2am. I wore 5 long sleeve shirts including a wool turtleneck on top of that i wore a windbreaker, i had 4 pants on, 3 pair of socks. I had 2 blankets, and a sleeping bag.

I WAS STILL SHIVERING!!!!! i thought i could get some rest before the morning hike, but it was too cold for me to even sleep and i had trouble breathing (asthma).

7th Oct

2 am came faster than i thought, we had breakfast and started out hike up.

We need to climb another 2.5km to reach the peak. For the first 1km, its was stairs- VERY STEEP STAIRS. ALL THE WAY. and it was getting colder as we kept on walking and walking. My legs were exhausted, and i had to breathe harder as the air was thinner as we got up.

The next 1.5 km was difficult for me, it was literally mountain climbing, we had to use ropes to pull ourselves up. I found myself stopping very frequently-very exhausting and i stared wheezing. Thank God for Alvin and Sean, they helped me a lot, they stopped and waited for me,made sure i was ok. Gruesome... really gruesome. At about 5.30 am i stopped to catch my breath, but i that the sun was coming up, so i said, i have to make it to the top before it comes out. So with all my strength from my everywhere, i hiked up and reached the peak, but i didn't get to see the sun rise!!!!!!!!!!!! its was too misty.The wind up there was furious, i was shaking like mad, trying so hard to take decent pictures.

The pic above was one of the spectacular views from above. Not only i got to see the sunrise,

i found peace within myself, and i accepted myself for being different and i am so much happier than before, all with the help from God. Thank you Lord for giving me the strength for doing this, making me see the bigger picture which i cannot fathom most of the times.

Ok enough of emo stuffs... we didnt stay for long, its was too cold.. Going down was just as difficult as going up. Only in the light i realised how steep and difficult was the climb to the peak.

We all had lunch and headed for back down, my journey back down was terrible.

It was raining like cats and dogs, i was drenched, tired, and my knees hurt like mad.. =(

I was soooo tired of feeling the pain, so i ran for the last 2 km, reached in approximately 3 hours and waited for the rest... My knees were goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... =(

We had lunch and headed off to Kota Kinabalu city..... *to be continued*

Self Accomplishment =)

Hieeee, its been quite a while since i blogged.. been pretty busy with life =D

A weekend with parent in Malacca, bf's graduation, hangout sessions, exams, test, assignment...

But the best of the best was today's event. I climbed Crystal Hill, and you can find crystals forming everywhere!!! =D

I must say it was very refreshing. Felt very different, i was so excited. It was my first time climbing a hill with all my other friends. It was quite steep at some point and we had to rock climb a little too.. We took approximately about 4 hours to reach the peak and go back down.. Here are some pictures .. Enjoy!!