SUNDAY!!

Hello dearest people;

I'll peel a piece of my life now to fill you in about what red/yellow/purple cloud has been over me.
The last 2 weeks was crazy, i mean its always crazy but for the past 2 months. It has been crazy crazy. Like a way that I could have never imagined. The impossible happened and I'm terribly surprised how much stress my body can handle. Actually not much. Physically or mentally. On a scale of one to ten. Its a staggering 2.37..

Haha. Humorous.

I have had 2 nervous breakdowns - ALREADY!. That was just in a total of 2 weeks. Let me think, in the past two months... how many nervous breakdowns have i had? 683 times.

My social life is a big ZERO. Actually is a negative. Haha. I spend my weekends in bed. Oh. I know how this sounds like. But i'm so happy to be in my bed. Our relationship has literally grown - exponentially.

This weekend work is being nice and gentle to me. So I have had a few extra hours to stare in the space and breath without having to do anything. Man.. The perfect definition of happiness.

And I had my 10km run. Wind in my face. My breakfast is not oats and nuts. Its actually scrambled eggs, with sauteed mushrooms and half and avocado with the perfect latte.

Owh. Sunday - you love me don't you?

I love you more.

I want to jump for joy.

What 3 things are you grateful for?

Today it was :

1) Chocolate cookies from the random guy
2) That my mom calls just when ever I need an angel.
3) That dad is still alive to annoy me. He loves me so much.

Every other day:

1) Playing in the soft rain.
2) Swimming in the moonlight.
3) Whispering before falling asleep.

Watching the sun in the morning, friendly dogs, Amber street lights when the world is sleeping.
So many things to be grateful for - that i'm foolish and innocent, So straight and can be deceived so easily,
that i'm alive and living intensely, that i have loved someone more than myself , I have watched loved ones died, i have cried like a baby, laughed everyday at everything and still keep my sanity. I'm so so happy I have no regrets. Everyday is a beautiful day - come what may.

This is one of those song - that makes me want to drive a stretch of 1000 km

and feel the wind in my hair.

So much love!

Happy weekend.

Happiness is..

1. Playing in the rain.
2. Travelling and exploring.
3. Dancing like how i like it.
4. Reading a heart-stirring book.
5. Cooking for love ones.
6. Awesome movies.
7. Lovely music for the soul.
8. A shared chocolate cake or ice-cream.
9. Good and fattening food. Always.
10. Not bothered of what others think of me.
11. New shoes.
12. Feeling the wind in my face.
13. Sloppy kisses from my dog.
14. Red tulips.
15. Bubble baths. 

Blue Skies

Hey peeps! What's hanging?  

Apologies, for only posting so much.

I have been a little running around getting things done.

Honestly, skies have never been bluer.

Everything feels so right. 

Chinese New Year is a stones' throw away now.

Excited?

Not so much for me anymore.

It used to be exciting.. 

I guess i have grown out of it!

Nonetheless - glorious amount of food!!

Food,maggots and green eyes..

Hello peeps, wassup? =)

It has been quite a while since my last post... was busy celebrating Chinese New Year.
It was a very small gathering, only my family.. but with lotsa food! Stuffed to the core!!!! =D
It was also a very quiet new year for us, i practically did nothing besides sleeping, eating (75%), and just greeting visitors so i could collect red packets!!
And surprisingly, despite all the inflation and bad economy, i received quiet a hefty sum. =)

*****

Because i had nothing to do, and i ate most of the time, i spend all my evenings running to lose all the extra calories. There's this beautiful place, like a secret little getaway, which takes your breath away everytime you just step your foot in there. It is a narrow stretch of 2 km, with alot of trees and knee long grasses.... its just perfect. There's also a little hill to climb up...
So while climbing that hill, i saw some movements in a tree, not exactly a tree.. more like a shrub, with many twigs and branches and leaves covering it... i looked closer..

And i almost died ... there were 7 cute little puppies... so tiny... just so... awwwww.
They were all snugged up, close together. And despite that i couldn't find their mother, they were
well fed.  =) [ I'm such a sucker for puppies ]

So i went back everyday just to get a glimpse of those cute little things... i wished i could bring them all home.. not one, but all of them. You should see them for yourself- its like they love each other so much. I wanted to touch them so much, but i was scared my hands would hurt them..
But i touched them anyway. My sister and I were having so much fun... until my sister found that
one of the puppies was sick, it was like .. out-casted, it was smaller and i guess it couldn't fight for milk?  It had holes in its body. Like HOLESSSS.
She being the caretaker of the universe was worried like hell. And off we went to buy Dettol, wanting to clean up its wound and help it be healthier all over again.

So the next day, off we went to rescue the little puppy, its was a white puppy with black spots.
I was really disgusted, my dad ( dog expert) was cleaning its wound.. and you wont believe it..
Fat maggots were crawling out of the wound. I stood away.. like far enough. Me and worms- NO NO.
So after one day, we came back and saw that its finally running around playing with its other siblings.
We we both delighted. =)

*****

I left my hometown for KL again, back to uni. I was so reluctant, so tired of travelling, and cleaning my room all over again.. Seriously, i really love all my clothes but I really hate it with a passion when i have to clean up my cupboard. Then wash the sheets and cook and study and tutorials, and assignments and bla bla bla... 

First day back was exhausting. Then i have to deal with... test this week. And test and exams don't stop until MAY. So yeah, my whole being was practically rejecting the whole idea of studying and mugging constantly. I wanted to cry..... why do i have to work so bloody hardddddddddddddddd..............

Irritated and sad... i just sat down and played angry birds. hhaahhahaha..

No homework done, no research done, no dishes washed, no clothes were folded.

Just me and my laptop. =) And my sister came to be with me so i won't go mad- just the thought of studying all those text books can drive me mad. I really have to make peace with my books.

While i was sending my sister back to the train station, [walking in the dark].

I was shocked as a man followed me really closely. I jumped and he apologized profusely.

Then we walked together back to our respective apartments. He had green eyes. =)

Sabah!!!

After our climb, we ten of us rent a few service apartments and stayed there for 2 nights. We explored the town, went to the Philippino Market , we visited one complex in particular because it was the nearest to us and we ate most our meals there.

*Picture taken next to Philippino market*

It was a time of bonding with everyone, its was nice to get to know people who share the same passion with me, travelling and outdoor sports. We are all soo different, but yet we all could come together and have so much fun. I enjoyed myself so much with these people.
Sze Wen, Alice, Lily, Su cin, Katherine, Winson, and of course the people i know better, like Kee Seng, Alvin and Woon Haw. It was a pleasure holidaying with you guys.

All in all, it was fun for me, would i do it again? HELL YEAH!!!!!!
                                                              

Enjoy!!

This was where we put up for a night, small cottage like house with a beautiful fire place... 

From our little house, we could see the magnificent mountain

that we were going to climb. Beautiful isn't she?? 

This is meeeee!!!! Excited and all smiley...
As mentioned in my previous blog, it was stairs all the way..
Ass tightening workout!!! As you can see, its rather misty,
and it was pretty cooling.

I took many pictures of trees... thats the only thing i snap.Many many trees all around. Most of them were bonsai-looking trees. There were a few beautiful flowers too... The last 3 photos were taken from the peak, on my way down. Breath-taking views. Definitely the most beautiful thing i have ever seen up till today... =)

This is where my life begins.

The sky was beautiful, so was the sea, and the view from above was breath-taking.

Everything was so tiny from air. Clouds look like cotton candies hanging from the clear blue sky.

Huge oil tankers looked like pencils, islands looked like chocolate cubes... imagine me... i must be sooooo tiny...

So here i am, in Sabah, mentally and physically ready to climb Mount KK.

We reached the airport about 2, and had lunch.. we had some difficulty getting transports to fetch us to KK park which is about 2.5 hours from the airport.. nonetheless, we managed to get relatively cheap transport and reached KK park at 6pm. Our journey up was just... breathtaking. Beautiful, just something i needed, no buildings, no trains, no honking, no angry people... just the sky, clouds, clear cool air and loads of smiley people... =) We had dinner and went to bed early.

6th Oct

I woke up at 6 am, packed, had breakfast and at 7 sharp, left for the timpohon gate, all ready for my hike. The first 1 km was kinda relaxing, but after that, it was stairs all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyy.... and i thought i was ready for this!!!! CAPITAL oh M gee.

My arse has never felt so tight....... =P

But i didn't feel tired at all, was too busy drinking in the beauty of it all. The air was cool enough, and it made my hike comfortable. Kept on munching chocs for energy!!!

After hiking for about 5 hours, i reached the 6th km mark(Laban Rata) , where all of us would rest for a few hours and continue our hike up to the submit.

My legs were ok, hasn't turn into jelly yet, but i needed to rest. Just as i thought i could check in.... then i just realized i had to climb a little more to my room.................................................

AAARRRGGGGHHHHH, with all my strength i marched up and was glad, that i could rest a little.... I was drenched in rain and had to take a bath. GUESS WHAT, water heaters were not working......................................................... so i did take a bath... the water was like... a tiny mouse's tail, and i had to stand under the shower for ages to wash my hair..... by the time i finished bathing, i couldn't feel my toes or finger. I have died and rose again. Did i mention it was 10 degrees C??????????????????????????????

We had dinner at 5 and played cards till about 8pm and headed for the bed, as our climb begins at 2am. I wore 5 long sleeve shirts including a wool turtleneck on top of that i wore a windbreaker, i had 4 pants on, 3 pair of socks. I had 2 blankets, and a sleeping bag.

I WAS STILL SHIVERING!!!!! i thought i could get some rest before the morning hike, but it was too cold for me to even sleep and i had trouble breathing (asthma).

7th Oct

2 am came faster than i thought, we had breakfast and started out hike up.

We need to climb another 2.5km to reach the peak. For the first 1km, its was stairs- VERY STEEP STAIRS. ALL THE WAY. and it was getting colder as we kept on walking and walking. My legs were exhausted, and i had to breathe harder as the air was thinner as we got up.

The next 1.5 km was difficult for me, it was literally mountain climbing, we had to use ropes to pull ourselves up. I found myself stopping very frequently-very exhausting and i stared wheezing. Thank God for Alvin and Sean, they helped me a lot, they stopped and waited for me,made sure i was ok. Gruesome... really gruesome. At about 5.30 am i stopped to catch my breath, but i that the sun was coming up, so i said, i have to make it to the top before it comes out. So with all my strength from my everywhere, i hiked up and reached the peak, but i didn't get to see the sun rise!!!!!!!!!!!! its was too misty.The wind up there was furious, i was shaking like mad, trying so hard to take decent pictures.

The pic above was one of the spectacular views from above. Not only i got to see the sunrise,

i found peace within myself, and i accepted myself for being different and i am so much happier than before, all with the help from God. Thank you Lord for giving me the strength for doing this, making me see the bigger picture which i cannot fathom most of the times.

Ok enough of emo stuffs... we didnt stay for long, its was too cold.. Going down was just as difficult as going up. Only in the light i realised how steep and difficult was the climb to the peak.

We all had lunch and headed for back down, my journey back down was terrible.

It was raining like cats and dogs, i was drenched, tired, and my knees hurt like mad.. =(

I was soooo tired of feeling the pain, so i ran for the last 2 km, reached in approximately 3 hours and waited for the rest... My knees were goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... =(

We had lunch and headed off to Kota Kinabalu city..... *to be continued*

Happiness

Happiness.... when was the last you remembered you were problem-less?For me when i was a kid, with no responsibilities, not corrupted and the most plain things in life brings me fulfillment. Where just bicycle rides and being in the air fulfilled my life.

When eating just fried egg with rice and tomato sauce seemed like the world best food to me,

When i would wait for my dad to come home in the porch everyday and smile at him, his tired face. and call out "PA!!!!". When i would pat my mom's back because she had morning sickness, and sat with her every afternoon to watch her tv shows.

When did things became so complicated? We say no but mean yes. We wanna be honest but we stop because of our ego. We're sad but we don't cry, we smile. We're scared but pretend we're not because we should be strong. We tired but we don't rest. We're in pain but we pretend its ok. Now, i have everything in material form, i have had the best steak, shark fin's soup, lobsters, i have all the clothes i want, i have friends. i have money, i have knowledge. But i don't feel and inch of happiness compared to having fried egg with rice and my mom and dad. I love you, thank you for being supportive.