Food,maggots and green eyes..

Hello peeps, wassup? =)

It has been quite a while since my last post... was busy celebrating Chinese New Year.
It was a very small gathering, only my family.. but with lotsa food! Stuffed to the core!!!! =D
It was also a very quiet new year for us, i practically did nothing besides sleeping, eating (75%), and just greeting visitors so i could collect red packets!!
And surprisingly, despite all the inflation and bad economy, i received quiet a hefty sum. =)

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Because i had nothing to do, and i ate most of the time, i spend all my evenings running to lose all the extra calories. There's this beautiful place, like a secret little getaway, which takes your breath away everytime you just step your foot in there. It is a narrow stretch of 2 km, with alot of trees and knee long grasses.... its just perfect. There's also a little hill to climb up...
So while climbing that hill, i saw some movements in a tree, not exactly a tree.. more like a shrub, with many twigs and branches and leaves covering it... i looked closer..

And i almost died ... there were 7 cute little puppies... so tiny... just so... awwwww.
They were all snugged up, close together. And despite that i couldn't find their mother, they were
well fed.  =) [ I'm such a sucker for puppies ]

So i went back everyday just to get a glimpse of those cute little things... i wished i could bring them all home.. not one, but all of them. You should see them for yourself- its like they love each other so much. I wanted to touch them so much, but i was scared my hands would hurt them..
But i touched them anyway. My sister and I were having so much fun... until my sister found that
one of the puppies was sick, it was like .. out-casted, it was smaller and i guess it couldn't fight for milk?  It had holes in its body. Like HOLESSSS.
She being the caretaker of the universe was worried like hell. And off we went to buy Dettol, wanting to clean up its wound and help it be healthier all over again.

So the next day, off we went to rescue the little puppy, its was a white puppy with black spots.
I was really disgusted, my dad ( dog expert) was cleaning its wound.. and you wont believe it..
Fat maggots were crawling out of the wound. I stood away.. like far enough. Me and worms- NO NO.
So after one day, we came back and saw that its finally running around playing with its other siblings.
We we both delighted. =)

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I left my hometown for KL again, back to uni. I was so reluctant, so tired of travelling, and cleaning my room all over again.. Seriously, i really love all my clothes but I really hate it with a passion when i have to clean up my cupboard. Then wash the sheets and cook and study and tutorials, and assignments and bla bla bla... 

First day back was exhausting. Then i have to deal with... test this week. And test and exams don't stop until MAY. So yeah, my whole being was practically rejecting the whole idea of studying and mugging constantly. I wanted to cry..... why do i have to work so bloody hardddddddddddddddd..............

Irritated and sad... i just sat down and played angry birds. hhaahhahaha..

No homework done, no research done, no dishes washed, no clothes were folded.

Just me and my laptop. =) And my sister came to be with me so i won't go mad- just the thought of studying all those text books can drive me mad. I really have to make peace with my books.

While i was sending my sister back to the train station, [walking in the dark].

I was shocked as a man followed me really closely. I jumped and he apologized profusely.

Then we walked together back to our respective apartments. He had green eyes. =)

What a Beauty.

I was in the car, on my way back home to celebrate chinese new year.

My dad decided to avoid all other cars so we begun our journey at 5 in the morning.

Given the weather these days *its totally mad- it has been raining 2 days non stop*

the morning was still very dark up till about 7.15.

I was extremely tired but i can never sleep in journeys. 

So i lay my head back and look up into the sky... it was the most beautiful sight ever.

The city is often too polluted to have this beautiful sight.

Then i remember again, how small i am, and how magnificent and vast this world is.

It was really very very beautiful. I spend all the time looking at the stars.

Until the sunlight blocked them away.

Conditional love.

Make me happy and i will love you back.
Love me and i will love you back.
But when it gets hard, i will break up with you.

Is that love? What is love? Nowadays, people love with conditions. Its hard to find someone
who loves unconditionally anymore. And it is costing us, all of us alot- the rising divorce rates.
And i feel sometimes i do practice conditional loving, because of my ego, selfishness and my pride.
But that happens rarely- maybe with my parents *ahhahhahahha* because they still treat me like a child,
and sometimes its really sweet but its also frustrating at the same time... because i wanna explore
and reach out to the unreached- and it is often dampen.

So yea, what exactly is unconditional love?
When you fall in love with a person, its all beautiful right? The sky is bluer than ever,
even the sea tastes sweet, the flowers suddenly blooms when you walk by.
All is good and perfect. But what happens when things are going the opposite way?
What if you guys failed to communicate, or distance are tearing you apart,
or you guys are trying to keep the flame alive. Or has the everyday stress creep up your relationship wall? Has the romance died? Or you guys are just plain tired?

Even in these situations, if you can still love the person and accept him then it is unconditional love.
You would give even if he couldn't give you back.
And he would give even if you can't give back.

Back to the simple rule : Compromise. Which most of us aren't willing to do it.
Because we all have this " I deserve better " rule. It is true if your treated unfairly and you feel bad most of the time and he doesn't work as hard as you regarding the relationship maybe its time to move on.

So where is the breaking point?