Stressed.

Its 3 am and i am still studying and my brain is fried. And i can feel it creeping up my shoulders.
Stress. Stress. Stress. My neck hurts and my shoulder blades feels heavy.

When i am stressed, i do all kinds of nonsensical stuffs. I would exercise like a mad woman, because it helps me release my stress and it gives me back my clear mind to i can continue studying.
And i either eat alot or don't eat. Both are equally bad. The worst part of stress is that, most of the days, i cannot fall asleep. My mind works all the time, and when i close my eyes, my brain still does all the calculations and i am still *miraculously trying to memorize all my equations. So, even if i get to sleep, i would wake up being more tired than i was before...

However, i also do realize that when i am stress... i become more creative.
Its the time i cook more, i wear more colorful stuffs.. and i draw more. And i do put on more make up,
i guess its also another way of therapy and releasing my stress.

Christmas is coming and i am so excited , however i have to get over next week.
I can't wait to cook for my family and i am so looking forward to spend time with my loved-ones.
So, there you go.. i'm off to my books again. =)