Do you have people you don't feel fine being around with? Those who are not so nice, and don't brighten up your day? I stay as far away as possible. At the heat of moment, i really dislike them, but eventually i would just get over people like this, and tell myself they don't deserve anything from me- not even my emotions.
So i vow that if there is a chance to make them feel however they make me felt, i would at any chance.
But you know what, when that moment comes, that very chance i could hurt them so much, i cannot do it.
Can never bring myself to do it. If a person hurt me, and no matter how bitter and sad i am about it, i could never bring myself to hurt them back, in any way.
The other day, i saw one of my friend- so called friend. Define a friend. Well, a friend is a friend. What makes the difference is a good friend and a bad one. So i saw him behaving weirdly.. stressed maybe, and i saw sadness in his eyes. I wanted to walk away and pretend to not care. I did walk away. But i walked back, and asked if he was ok, so i sat down next to him and talked. He was indeed sad, and needed company. What kind of person would i be, if my friend, anyone as a matter of fact, needed a person to talk to and i turned a blind eye. What kind of unforgiving person would i be, if i hung unto the past.
But sometimes, i really can't forgive. And i dunno how and where to put my sadness. So i can start again.
So i can love the world, despite how mean they are. But i guess we bring human, are always prone to lean towards the people that just make us feel nice. But have you thought if the people you don't like, driving you to be a better person as a whole? I think so too sometimes, pushing me over the limit.
Today i feel a little alone, if i could brush off the hurt, forgive, sit down and take the initiative to care for someone who wasn't nice to me before. Why can't i meet others who are like that too.
Because when i have sadness in my eyes, no one sits beside me.
I guess i shouldn't expect anything in return.Now i remembered, God carries my burden, takes my hurt, and lays me down in green pastures.Renews me again and again.
Friends are indeed hard to find.
So i vow that if there is a chance to make them feel however they make me felt, i would at any chance.
But you know what, when that moment comes, that very chance i could hurt them so much, i cannot do it.
Can never bring myself to do it. If a person hurt me, and no matter how bitter and sad i am about it, i could never bring myself to hurt them back, in any way.
The other day, i saw one of my friend- so called friend. Define a friend. Well, a friend is a friend. What makes the difference is a good friend and a bad one. So i saw him behaving weirdly.. stressed maybe, and i saw sadness in his eyes. I wanted to walk away and pretend to not care. I did walk away. But i walked back, and asked if he was ok, so i sat down next to him and talked. He was indeed sad, and needed company. What kind of person would i be, if my friend, anyone as a matter of fact, needed a person to talk to and i turned a blind eye. What kind of unforgiving person would i be, if i hung unto the past.
But sometimes, i really can't forgive. And i dunno how and where to put my sadness. So i can start again.
So i can love the world, despite how mean they are. But i guess we bring human, are always prone to lean towards the people that just make us feel nice. But have you thought if the people you don't like, driving you to be a better person as a whole? I think so too sometimes, pushing me over the limit.
Today i feel a little alone, if i could brush off the hurt, forgive, sit down and take the initiative to care for someone who wasn't nice to me before. Why can't i meet others who are like that too.
Because when i have sadness in my eyes, no one sits beside me.
I guess i shouldn't expect anything in return.Now i remembered, God carries my burden, takes my hurt, and lays me down in green pastures.Renews me again and again.
Friends are indeed hard to find.
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