Sad but true.

Yesterday, after like a zillion years of not going out at night. I decided to attend a farewell party for a friend of mine. It seems like forever since i have dressed up... hahhaha ( uni ) i know its not a reason, but it is for me!!

Normally i would just wear t-shirt and jeans and i'm all nerdy with my specs and school bag.

I always believe that people do adore beautiful creatures, but i didn't know how true that statement is, until yesterday night. I got up a cab, and he was so pleased with my make up, he steal glances at me every chance he could. The ride that would normally cost about 15 bucks.... is free!!!! all because i put in a little effort.

HAH!!!!! So sad, all these privileges are for the beautiful and nice looking only. Sad but true!!! =(

We are our own leader, own destroyer.

Life is really what you make of it; good things, bad things, all make into this thing called life; as given by God, we have freewill to change our innermost thoughts, desires and actions, thus having the capacity, ability and power to change our actions and subsequent future, ultimately destiny. Life is not a competition, each one's journey is different. I find it interesting, that people would turn to me, and say "ah, you say that because you had such a wonderful life, blah blah blah..."; it's so interestingly egocentric, blame-shifting-finger-pointing in a classic 'oh-you-were-born-with-goodies-I'm-just-jinxed-blah-blah' when we all have the same commodity: we all have 24 hours in a day. We all have freewill. We all have a God who loves us. 

We all have potential.

Let those who have ears to hear, hear.

Let those who have minds to perceive, perceive and understand.

It's time to arise and build. Our destiny is at hand.

Are you Complete?

Yesterday i came across this beautiful article about being in a relationship. 

And i thought it made a lot of sense. Check it out.

I do feel and understand what she's trying to convey.

But it was beautiful for me, like as if someone read my thoughts.. =)

Do you agree with the writer?

Trouble is part of your life, 

and if you don't share it,

you don't give the person who 

loves you 

enough chance to love you enough. 

Do you have any worries or problems that are making you anxious?

I might not know you, or love you, at least let me show you what

plain kindness and warmth can do to your heart.

I would love to hear you out. =)

FRIDAY 

IS 

COMING....

*a little something to kick start your Monday- hehhheehe =)

Happy Monday guys!!!!

Juggling with glasses?

It's a sunny shiny Sunday, so i shall just sit at home and do things i should be doing..
like the chores and cleaning and studying.

Do you ever feeling like you can't keep up? i can't keep up... is it because i am juggling with too many things?
I do feel like that from time to time, but definitely not the times when i am sitting in front of the laptop watching Gossip Girls. Hmmmm...

I often feel like that i can do alot in 24 hours, but my body doesn't permit to do so. Like for example, after cleaning and washing and cooking and drying the clothes. I am ready to sit down to study, but physically i am kinda tired and fidgety, all i want to do is get a magazine or book and just lie down.
How do you keep it all together, have time for yourself, keep the house clean,and read all your notes AND understand them, time for the gym..... How do you juggle all these and keep your sanity in tact.

When you're tired, how do you take care of yourself? Is it physically, mentally, emotionally????
For me its physically, but i am going to try mentally soon. It's all about the mind isn't it?
So today, i am just going to read magazines and tell myself i have done enough for the past week. =D

Happy SUNDAY to you!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

I'm such a sucker for romance. (who's not?)

But where has it gone to?

It got lost along the way, from 300 miles away,

into our frustrations, and everyday task and tiredness...

how do you re-awaken things?

Is your partner romantic?? =)

Swoon babes!!!!

Isn't this just lovelyyyyy

Swoon swoon swoon........ wants to get this pair!!!!!  

Click here!!!

Why Don't You?

Wear 

perfume 

to sleep

Don't you just feel so pumped up listening to this song?

I dooooooooo....... =D

Happy Tuesday to you.

*pump it up till Friday*

What a GREAT monday...

After feeling a little off during the weekend, thank God for my friends who rescued me from a big black pit hole.
Owwhhh, did i mention about my test? It was open book, but nothing from the book came out!!! As usual, lecturers wouldn't give you free marks... nothing in this world is free remember???
Yea so that chapter is totally gone......

I spent most of my day and night with friends who graduated and who came back to the city for job interviews..
It was refreshing for me... so much laughter and smiles... we laugh at almost everything and anything..
Silly silly us.... and all the teasing and making fun... I really miss them...
We had lunch together, and then we caught the green lantern together.. It was a little childish kinda movie for me... but anyways, i really enjoyed the company though.

I am super exhausted today, i barely slept last night, was having a lot of nightmares lately...
And its 12:38 am and i have a 8am class tomm and i can't sleep... so i am here telling you about my day.
It was a really pleasant Mondays, i wished all of my Mondays are as such.. in fact i wished it was everyday.
Laughter filled days. =)

How was your Monday? 

Interesting lyrics... 

This little cutie pie is my younger sister... I have been meaning to write a post about my beloved sister, but i never could get around it, because it gets me all emotional.

She's the best thing that have happen in my life.She's my bestest friend.. hahhaha

A person whom i will always lookout for, take care of, love-alot, protect, scold, guide and knock sense into her. She is growing up, getting old and seeing alot of the world.

I am afraid one day she grows up too fast and has her own friends and will never need me again.

I still remember, i used to take her diapers, and feed her milk, and she plays Barbie dolls with me,

and dressing up and when she was younger she always follows me around.. and it usually pisses me off.

She's there when i am having a break up or break down, fat days, slim days,

fail days, pass days, birthdays..

I love you, please don't grow up so fast.

I love you forever Rachel.

You will always be my little sister.

You will be my maid of honor, and will wear Vera Wang too.

haha.

younger days

2010

Doesn't she look all hot and grown-up?
Sis's prom (2010)

My 23rd birthday

Food for thought.

I always feel that i am responsible for the people around me, and it is very hard for me to feel relax and totally relaxed. I feel that i have to care about them, love them, look out for them, walk with them, carry them, run with them, cook for them, clean for them, make sure they choose the right decisions.

There's always something i have to do for others, just to make their everyday life a little less harder.
And i sometimes feel that most of my day is about other people. The thing is i freely offer my help to those who need it.

Just yesterday i had a little time after all the cleaning and washing, and in between my studies and painting.. i had a little time for myself... i wondered if all the people i helped, are they worth it? Would they help me in return...
Could anyone have offered me help if i didn't help them in the first place. It's a cold cold world isn't it.
I doubt anyone in this society would offer to help. We are rats running everywhere all the time, running away from our bed in the mornings, and running back to it in the evenings.

Do we have that kindness in our hearts? We do don't we, it's just that everyone is too freaking busy to care.
Sometimes i feel that life shouldn't be like that. It should be filled with people who get up for older citizens in the train or bus, filled with people who buys food for the less fortunate and puts it in their begging cup, or help a blind man cross the street, or help the tourist who is loss, or help the old lady to pick her heavy bags....

Sometimes it saddens me so much, to see... everyone is for themselves...
Then who is for me? who would give me, a smile or an acknowledgement, who would help me...
God will. I can love others so freely because He first loved me.

Remember????

You know what.... when i was younger and when i was dating....

I made so much effort... i mean like, i made sure my hair was mirror-like-shiny, and i made sure my breath was fresh all the time, i dressed up during dates and made sure i smell good.. 

But now, i just can't seem to be bothered about all these things... but i do make sure i am clean and i smell pleasant and i am presentable.. 

Do you remember when you first dated a person? How we- girls get ready for dates. OMG.

I can totally use that time to get some rest nowadays. Unfortunately, i haven't been dating anyone lately(more like  forever). I used to make sure my skin was perfect, and my legs are shaved, and my hair smelled like ....... amazing.

hahaahahha... just reminiscing old times. Today i was cleaning up my closet and realized that i have soooooo many dress and beautiful things to wear, and i don't really wear them anymore because i don't have the occasion to wear it to, or someone to wear it with. It was feels nicer when you're doing something for others.

I am sure if you made yourself breakfast it will be cereal and milk, but with that someone special.. it will be cereal and milk plus chocolates and strawberries!!! =)

And i remember being shy in front of guys, and not eating on first dates, and just smiling sheepishly throughout the whole date..... 

How were your first dates like?? 

Typical weekend.

What a b-e-a-u-tiful day........................

Like every weekend, i make breakfast for two (my sister is bunking in with me), a little squeezed but its filled with laughter and lots of love =D. Every morning i make for her breakfast before she heads off to work.. unless i have an early class in the morning.

So today i woke up wondering what to make for her...... and then i thought Cinnamon Toast!!!!
Ohhh... it was amazing.. first time making cinnamon toast!! i will make it more often now- its so easy!!

How have you been doing? I have been pretty busy with uni... test starts on Monday!! so this weekend is totally for studying. I have been pretty busy whipping up food for sister too.. i mean i cook for myself everyday, but you know.. you tend to plan and cook more when you're serving someone too..
I find it pretty exhausting.. Clean, cooking, going to the gym, uni and studying... Do you too?

Before i start studying i have to clean up my closet, OMG. it so messy i can't find anything.
And i have bought a few things lately... hehehhee =)
So you can see, i bought so FEW things that is has made my closet pretty stocked up.
* do the happy dance* I love having new stuffs, but honestly i think its getting a little pack.
Should i go slow.... or just get a bigger closet.. i mean if its its a small cupboard of course its packed right, but put the clothes from a small cupboard into a big cupboard, all you get is 20% filled. haha.

I think its time for me to be money savvy, since i will be graduating soon and i really plan, to make my money work for me, not the other way round. Life is hard enough and i really don't want to feel like i have to force myself to be a slave for money. Maybe some investment... but i think its totally not the right time- with Greece being on the brink of Bankruptcy.. a recession may hit US market and then it will happen with the rest of the world. so yea..... omg... did i just sound like financial person... hahahhaa.....
How do you save? what investment do you make for today and your future?

hopefully it will be a pleasant day today!!! Weather is pretty awesome-its cloudy and windy...
Cleaning and studying here i comeeeeee............

Lots of love... =)
Have a beautiful day.

: O

ELIE SAAB

VERA WANG

Monique Lhuillier

Badgley Mischka

Christos

Oscar de la Renta

Marchesa

Reem Acra

Oh my, can i just wear all the wedding dresses without getting married?

They look so ..............................  died. and gone to heaven.

Not that i am getting married.

These designers are just- born to do it.

=D

Sales is everywhere!!! 

I Got this beautiful dreamy dress yesterday.

Just got to get it when i laid my eyes on it.

Check it out here.

Perfect dress for so many occasions i can think of..

Dress it up with some heels or platforms,

or go low key with flats or sandals..

Can't wait to wear this dress!!!

 =)

Not every itch should be scratched..

I chopped off my hair.

Totally.. T.T

Just not used to it.

I'll get use to it soon.

But still...

T.T

Feast your eyes

Our  beautiful and very pleasant stay at Sunda Resort.

Streets of Ao Nang.

Sunset, beautiful isn't it.

Maya Bay, where "The Beach" was filmed.
Crowded, nonetheless- like heaven on earth.

All the pictures with the clear blue waters are at Phi Phi Island.
It was breathtaking, and so beautiful....  It is about 40 minutes
for mainland, we have so much fun snorkeling and island hoping.
Phi phi island consists of 3 small islands.

We did kayaking and caving too...
It was very exhausting for me, we were kayaking for about
5 hours...  Dead by the end of the day.

*photos are completely not Photoshop-ed*

I missed that moment.

 You know that moment- when grace has fallen upon you and you have achieved something that you wanted.
Today i feel a little down. I miss feeling that i could achieve anything in life. I feel life is hard, and its harder for me because i am a @#$@#$((@#& perfectionist.

I went to hike Mount KK, because i was on the verge of losing my mind, my relationship was failing, so are my studies, i feel like i don't know myself anymore. My purpose to hike up to the peak, was a way to prove to myself, that if i can do this, i can do anything, it required great motivation, physical and strong mentally capability to encourage myself to keep on track, and also help my friends who were weaker.

The moonlight hike was difficult for me, as the air gets thinner and thinner.
But when i finally reached the peaked. I felt like i wanted to cry. I felt free.I felt like... i can't describe it.
And today, i miss that feeling, i want to be free again. I don't know from what.
From my own mind?

That is what a holiday is to me, where i take time, to let go and regain my mental health to take on the world.
I really want to go for another holiday, which can make me sane again.. not that i am insane.
Free from my mind devils, and the rat race, and the things i have to see to. I wished i can do something for myself, only for me and myself.

I just returned from a holiday, but it didn't help me in the way i wanted it to be, because i wasn't searching.
I am searching now. And i will find it soon. But i am scared of going to places alone.. hahhahahah....
I have to do this, for myself. I promise photos of Thailand will be up soon!!!

I hope your day was better than mine... share with me.

I found my camera wire... hehehe.. 

My hair is poker straight.. and i need lotsa volume .
I don't like using hair products because no matter what product i use..
it doesn't work... because whenever i step out the house.. its flat again..
thanks to our hot and humid weather..

i need help... shed some light please.

Thursday night..

peeps, wassup... i still can't find my wire!!! hahhahaha

Uni just started, assignments are given out.. quizzes and tests dates are all set.
How depressing is that. Total wet blanket for me.

Anyways... my holiday in Thailand was beautiful. Scenic would be the right word to describe my holiday. and not forgetting the word, Burnt. hahahahha.. Thailand was just a break that i really needed, this time i went with 11 of my friends, it was just fun, fun, fun.. i stole some pictures from my friends.. hehe. enjoy!!

Why Don't You?

Wear 

a 

red 

dress 

today?

Love

Sorry peeps, i have really been busy and i kinds misplaced my camera wire... so until i can find it, no vacation pictures!!! Sorry!!!

Today i want to share about love, about a very special kind of love- unconditional love.
A few days ago, i saw a documentary about a woman's love, unconditional love for everyone around her.
She went to Thailand after the world war 2, wanting to care about the less fortunate but God used her, and the capability to love to make a hue paradigm change in Thailand, she now owns an orphanage, for HIV positive kids.

It all happened when one day, when she was visiting another orphanage, and there was 5 babies left on the floor in a particular room. No one would touch them or care for them. The babies were left there to die. She thought that no matter what an individual has, they don't deserve to be left to die alone, no matter what disease they have.

So she loved, and cared for those who are rejected by the society. What love is this? Agape love- unconditional love. It moved me to tears, made me want to be someone like her. Someone who can love,touch ,care for someone who has aids, or leprosy or is rejected and dying.. She is really admirable.
I have yet to see and meet someone who has so much love, i would love to meet someone like that.
I believe she is the kind of person out society needs badly.

No judgement, no negatives, only love, a love that changes lives.