Indulgence!

Yesterday night, i busted my ass off baking this cake.

It's worth it.

Try it!

pic take from here

Brown barking love.

It has been a while, since i last wrote about my doggie. 

Now i have started working - i think what will he be doing at home at this moment. 

He has grown - tremendously. 

Look at his face when he was a young puppy!! So .....

And he looks old huh.. he is only 8 months old!

He has been unwell lately, on antibiotics.

And the socks he is wearing...we applied some cream and don't want him to lick it off.

He bites his paw when he is stressed.. or a little lonely.

So i try to spend as much time as possible when i can,

walks in the morning and evening,

Warm and long hugs when i see him,

Sometimes i just roll with him on the floor,

Give him his tummy and neck scratches..

and his food..and he loves my food too.

You know sometimes when my parents are not watching..

and if he knows they are not there..

He runs up to my room and knocks my door.

I love youuuuuuuuuuu Mr Brown.

Dog are just simply the best...

Can hardly understand why people abuse dogs,

actually i can understand but its just 

beyond my capacity to accept it.

Anyways, Lovely day peeps!

Enjoy it. 

The many dimensions of .. anything...

Hello there..

Did you know i have over 60G of music files. I'm crazy like that. If i like a particular song.. i would have a minimum of 3 to 4 different versions of it. And lately i have been pretty hung up with this song.

I love all three of them, this is how i love my music.

Listening to the same song, but different singers touches different notes in me. 

Have a beautiful day peeps!

Check this Out!!

It worked for me!! hahahhaah

The radio station has been playing alot of these two songs lately.

 I hear it on the way to work, and back home too! 

Stucked on inside like a post it!

Happy Weekend!

I want this for my study - but it wont be clean and empty fo sure!

Loves how it complements the wall. 

Would love to have this simple kitchen... only bigger.

photos from here

I have a feeling this weekend will be amazing! :) Love for all of you. I hope your weekend is as blasting as mine! Till then Love!

Philematology

 How pretty is this pink dress?? I never used to consider pink as a wearable color, not until recently... 

Perfect Tuesday.

Whats hanging peeps? I hope you have had a wonderful weekend. My weekend was a little near heaven. :)
I work on Saturdays , so there's nothing much to mention about work. My Sunday/Monday was awesome. Filled to the brink with joy and awesomeness.

You see, i constantly feel that my life is like a packet of instant noodles. It only takes 2-3 minutes to get it done and over with. So it really felt invigorating when something stops me or slows me down.

I was invited to check out a pent house around town area, over looking the sea. Oh My! With a place and view like this, i wouldn't mine being at home forever and ever. Her home looked like one of those featured in a catalogue. Le sigh. I have always wanted my own space ... especially my own kitchen. Cooking up a storm for myself and friends... would be such a pleasure. Anyways yeah, that pretty much took up my Sunday.

Monday was relaxing, other than the cooking part. I made some roast with some side dish and another dish to round it up as a meal... So it was nice.. not having to cook something that requires only minutes. It took hours, but it was pleasant. Haven't truly felt this way in a long long time.

Anyways, Tuesday seems pleasant too! Good Day to all of you. :)

Pretty Things.

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Apparel Fuss.

I tell you something, i realized that i am a very rushing person, even when i'm not rushed or there's nothing to be done. Let me elaborate, i have been wearing skirts, pencil skirts.Now i truly realized how hard is it to walk in these figure-complementing things.

Wearing these skirts had made me walk very slowly, only small strides please.

Tell you another thing, i won't wear pencil skirts again - no matter how good i look in them.
It's a torture.

Another torture, is , wearing ... hosiery.

But I'll wear this pretty skirt.

What a Beautiful picture!!

Two sides to a coin.

The weather is drastically changing. It's supposed to be the warm part of the year but the skies has been pouring non-stop. Day and night and every other time in between.

You know, i find something really amusing and disturbing at the same time, just a little observation of my own. I realized that people don't like to talk about bad things, or bad emotions. Please picture in mind when i say talking about bad things - it's talking/expressing with your mind and heart. No crying, or physical expressions. Only talking.

I mean i am well aware that we should always have the optimistic attitude to strive forward in life. And we have all heard the "Think good, you'll attract the good".
Note this.. But everyone also knows that there are two sides to a coin. Meaning to say we are all aware that there is an opposite to every abstract nouns we feel in life {notice i didn't use the word negativity} and it immediately sounds better.

Does it make me a bad person if i say what i feel inside? Even when i'm not supposed to say it? Is it ok to say i am tired sometimes? Or i am sad today? Or sometimes life is a bitch - without making it a joke? Because it really is-sometimes. And i really hate it when people see me like they can see hurt in my eyes - and then sympathize. Then try to laugh and turn it into a joke. I'm hurt that's all. We all are at some point in time right? Is hurt so bad we can't face it? Difficult i know, even i want to fly away from it. But its inevitable.

I honestly find it amusing that we all lie to ourselves by not talking about the bad things in life.We just block it away right? I do that too sometimes.. If we can talk about happiness i don't see why we can't talk about sadness too.  Is it because no one knows how to deal with sadness.. other that leaving it to Mr. Time to manage it for us?

Nobody tells me bad things - makes me feel like i am the only person whom bad things happens to. All i am hearing is how great life is, and you will get there and its fulfilling. But i have never heard one person sincerely say it is difficult. Is it because nobody wants to admit that we all need a little help sometimes?
No one tells you how challenging life can be, or how difficult is it to juggle work and a family, or to just be happy sometimes.

I think everyone in the world is an optimist except me.

P/s: today is a little grey and i am not ashamed to say it.. Need to walk on the beach and feel the wind in my pretty hair. But all i can do is sit in the office and visualize. :) Happy Day peeps. Love for all of you!!

What A Pain!!

Ever since i started working, my whole daily routine has changed dramatically. My sleeping patterns, and exercise plans, even eating habits. Sometimes change can be very difficult to conquer.

I wake up early most of the days, unless i had a late night. Walk my dog, and then go for a run and house chores would be everywhere in between. But i always had the luxury of an afternoon nap. I obviously can't be sleeping in front of my computer at work now.. If you don't know already - i have a bad sleeping problem. I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. Sometimes i don't sleep.


The Effects?

1) Bad skin.
2) Please type sleep deprivation on Wikipedia.



I honestly envy people who can just fall straight to sleep and just stay asleep for hours. It seems like a very difficult thing for my body and mind to do. I would like to think that i have tried the many ways to try to sleep, from having warm milk, to a relaxing bath, to lavender oil, to getting drunk(WORKS!), and of course the last resort would be popping the pill - this only happened twice when i couldn't sleep for weeks.

I would really like to sleep. It is so frustrating, because most of the time i wake up the next morning feeling more tired than i was the day before.

Ever since i started working, i have included yoga into my daily routine, and i noticed that i have been experiencing terrible migraines.

Now combine the two scenarios.

Have a pleasant no-migraine day!!

Lagerfeld..... Lagerfeld.

Simplicity..

pictures from here.

World Standard.

I don't think i have mentioned this, but i am actually working for an international cosmetic company. So far work is ok, no heavy workload at all. But the pressure to look good is ... to the boiling point.

On the first day of my work, i spend about 20 minutes to put on make-up. Then on the way to wok, i was thinking and thinking... What if i cut out that fraction of putting on make-up and just sleep/walk my dog for a longer time.. {sometimes thoughts are evil}.. Later, when i report for work ... I got to know that make-up is vital (capital letters please.)

Oh yeah, alright.And so i thought - It is not so hard anyway. {Not true!}

After about a week here, i now realized why make-up is vital in a cosmetic company. I don't even need to be told to put on make-up. I now want to put on make-up, by my own free will. The people and customers that come in here. They all look like ...... supermodels.

Carefully coiffed shiny hair, slim and slender as a giraffe, and their skin..... is like ... baby's bottom. And yes with that kind of amazing skin, painting on make-up will definitely look better.

And i'm the girl whom sales assistants will ask if i need acne-scar cream at the pharmacy.

Putting on make up is really a chore for me. Not to mention the many many things i have to slather on my skin before the real make-up itself. I have so many scars to cover up, by the time i finish covering up its time to get in the car. Even if i try covering them up... they just look like i smothered mud onto cement surface - it just makes it stand out even more. So why bother!!??  Please don't get me started on the colors that i have to co-ordinate with my clothes. Gah! I wished i was my grandma. She is the type of woman who can actually sit in a salon for hours to get her hair done, and dressing up with a must for her. For me - tying up my hair is considered making and effort and the dressing up part... is non existence - unless i have a grand function. Even then, its tiring for me because i have to act girly.

Just yesterday some of the beauty advisers decided to give me some ... apparently needed "guide" on how to look good. Honestly - Message was loud and clear but i didn't hear a word. ;)
Life is too short - to be only wearing colors that suit your skin tone, or hide behind certain clothes. Wear what you want. If that red lipstick don't compliment your skin - let it stand out and work it like a boss!!

Oh, come on. What happened to having Fun? To set the record straight - i am world class standard , my brains and my heart. Oh. and my perfect shiny hair too!

Have a beautiful Friday!.

hahhahahahaha.

Just for fun.. :)

Hello - I work here.

I have a permanent flu. My office is made up of ice. Today, I wore three layers of -supposedly warming clothes, but its not helping at all. I am constantly eating-because i need heat(?) .. i think. And its not helping. My pants is getting tighter by the day.

Thank you. Have a non icy day.

Ridiculous.

I love my job ... because i am so free while at work. I can actually blog here....

Anyways that is not what i want to elaborate about. You know something? I have started to read- like actual reading. Like go to a bookstore- get a book and flip through the pages until the end. I never use to read-well other than the educational ones that i am required too... simply because i don't have interest it in i guess.

So imagine me.. totally not a reading person - going to the bookstore, in search of a book. Its A book. Any book. I don't know anything about good authors, or should i read fiction or non-fiction. I just want a good book.  {I secretly wish there's a machine that helped me with my situation.}

Most of the time i just find myself standing at the shelfs, thinking.. " Where do i start? " . 1 minute after that i find myself staring at the " What's Top This Week " section of the bookstore. So nothing interest me... because at the back of all the books.... are written with things like ..

 " A Splendid Read" , or  " Incredibly moving " ... or some massive lumps of words asking me to read it.

instead of the actual synopsis of the book....

So the first book i picked up was a "self-help" book. Something about getting to know men better. It has a catchy book title { and i don't know men that well either. }, so why not? i thought. I purchased it with a few other books.

When i flipped the page open. I totally regretted buying this book. The whole book points out the fact how men and women behave,react and understand the same things differently. I scanned through the pages and told myself i am not going to read or buy this kind of book ever again.

Simply because i find it an exaggeration of what the real truth is. Look i know how different men and women are, but not until the point where we are totally different like how the mars and venus statement. I got a little frustrated with the book and eventually myself for being so {fill in the blank.} 


I can read maps, and i can solve problem and i always give solutions when all someone needs is just a listening ear. And it is not true men can't multitask, or they retract into their "caves" when they are feeling down or they are not emotional-beings.

Maybe i should go back and see when this book was actually published. Because i'm really finding it irrelevant. Over the years, i have seen many men who are not only driven in careers, but whom also can be emotional and loving at the same time. And sure enough i have also seen many men who are way more emotional than they should be....

Well... yeah. So no more dumb self-help books-lah. Honestly the books that were interesting to me, are the ones filled with recipes that i can try at home- the best investment if you want to self-help yourself.

"To live content with small means; to seek elegance rather than luxury, 

and refinement rather than fashion; 

to be worthy, not respectable; and

wealthy, not rich; to study hard, think 

quietly, talk gently, act frankly...to listen to stars and buds, to babes and

sages, with open heart; await occasions,

hurry never...this is my symphony."

- william henry channing

Time always flies past me. Leaving me more frantic than i already am. 

Have to slow down....