You know.. yesterday i had the worst melt down ever.. the worst of the worst. I yelled, and then i cried and then i ran like a mad man. I'm sure there were parts where i cried and ran at the same time. Not very good for the heart - i was gasping for air.
I just can't stand all the things and people around me. Its so unnecessary, and a waste of time. It's a joke... seriously a big big joke. People just make things difficult and hard and confusing. It is all very easy. Very very easy.
Sometimes i think i care too much.. look at those around me who are selfish. I bet they get around life just fine - just them themselves and their needs. My sister said that her friend, who went for therapy, said that you should be selfish, because once you think of other people's needs, there's where the problem starts -----> WHAT DID I JUST WRITE DOWN?
Honestly, yesterday i just wanted to break all the glasses by throwing them on the floor, i'm sure the act itself would have granted me some satisfaction. I wanted to overturn all the tables, and break everything that i could possibly reach for. I was feeling so frustrated,angry, and i would use the world fed up. Why is everyone so selfish? Why can't i be selfish too? I want to be selfish too.... but i know it will just feel so unnatural if i do.
It hurts to be nice and selfless sometimes. But i'll be anyway. Because ultimately, its between me and Him. The night ended well- while i was upstairs busy self-soothing. I suddenly heard someone with claws knocking on my door. And the white angel came to rescue me..... with wet kisses and lovely warm hugs.
And P/s if i ever go for therapy sessions and the therapist said something like that to me, i'm taking my money back, and i'll give the therapist a session.
I just can't stand all the things and people around me. Its so unnecessary, and a waste of time. It's a joke... seriously a big big joke. People just make things difficult and hard and confusing. It is all very easy. Very very easy.
Sometimes i think i care too much.. look at those around me who are selfish. I bet they get around life just fine - just them themselves and their needs. My sister said that her friend, who went for therapy, said that you should be selfish, because once you think of other people's needs, there's where the problem starts -----> WHAT DID I JUST WRITE DOWN?
Honestly, yesterday i just wanted to break all the glasses by throwing them on the floor, i'm sure the act itself would have granted me some satisfaction. I wanted to overturn all the tables, and break everything that i could possibly reach for. I was feeling so frustrated,angry, and i would use the world fed up. Why is everyone so selfish? Why can't i be selfish too? I want to be selfish too.... but i know it will just feel so unnatural if i do.
It hurts to be nice and selfless sometimes. But i'll be anyway. Because ultimately, its between me and Him. The night ended well- while i was upstairs busy self-soothing. I suddenly heard someone with claws knocking on my door. And the white angel came to rescue me..... with wet kisses and lovely warm hugs.
And P/s if i ever go for therapy sessions and the therapist said something like that to me, i'm taking my money back, and i'll give the therapist a session.
u fought with somebody? dont be too upset ya. not worth getting angry to bed. oh in the end doggies r our best frenwnz :)
ReplyDeleteDon't really fight la, but sometimes people can get selfish and unreasonable.. so have to deal with it. Some days i'm an A star student, other days i just don't do that well. So .. yeah. I'm just a little upset. It will pass soon. :)
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