Can't Wait

When i stepped into the light

Clear blue skies are ahead of me. The storm is of yester-years. I'm glad, today, i had some balls.
To want to change my future. I did it.

I feel so unsafe now, so not in my comfort zone. And i'm going to make all of it into my comfort zone.

I took a leap of faith. It shook me, made my heart tremble a little. But i did it. And i am glad.

Delicate

My hiding space.

 

 

 

I would do everything. legal. 

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Drowning in my dreams.

Lately I have been cruising.. Just letting my life and days cruise by. Because i'm afraid to move, to change it, to mold it according to my mind maps. And as disgusted i'm with myself for letting that happen to me, i am glad too.

I have been just dreaming, waiting for it to happen to me. Just hoping i don't have to work hard for the life i have planned myself. And a few days ago, i just sat down thinking and thinking.. and just got so sick of not making things work, when I know i can move mountains someday, not today or tomorrow but i know someday soon.

So what was I actually afraid of? Was it failure? I guess you could say so. But mostly i would say i didn't move my ass because i was too cautious. I wanted to make sure that it was the 'right time', the 'right thing' and of course the 'right move', on whether it suited me or not. Well, I most certainly know that there is no such thing as the right time or right move. I just got to do it. However, i also know that there is such thing as luck and amazing opportunity knocking at the door just at the 'right time' - if you know what i mean.

But i'm gonna work hard for the future i have in mind.. I'm gonna embark on a new journey, a very significant one in fact. I'm so excited for myself, and, you, my dear readers, if i ever lose hope or side track. Please do not hesitate to nudge me back into the right track.

Great things are coming my way. :)
Almost can feel it coming. Wish me luck.

So much love for you guys.

Are You H.A.P.P.Y ?

"Happiness isn't being cheerful all the time," says John Sharp, a psychiatrist and Harvard Medical School. "It's being interested in things—finding out more about something, learning how to appreciate something better, incorporating something new that fits with what you already have."



 

Why Don't You

 

 

 

 

 

 

KISS

THE

RAIN.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Take A Leap Of Faith.

You know something, i realized that something things should have been easier in life. I was talking to a friend, he mentioned that if things are meant to be for you, it will be smooth sailing, almost perfect.

At first i disagree, i think i disagreed way too fast without thinking. I mentioned that if you want something, sometimes it is harder to get it. {Hello! - forces of nature!} Naturally things won't come to you easily when you want it the most.

Then he went on to explain that if you have to put so much effort for something 'regular' or something 'normal', at the end of the day you have to ask yourself if it even worth the effort. For something 'regular'. Then he went on to say its better to leave, and something that is naturalling effortless will come along.

I kept my mouth shut later. Because it made so much sense, but sometimes i know you have to struggle in order to obtain something. And often we still don't get the end results/product that we desire so much in the beginning. So we just take away the experience from the journey.Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted. { Does this means that i am experienced }. However experience is also the most valuable thing anyone can offer.

So are there things in life, which are not working out miraculously for you? Is it worth the effort and time? Are the things you pursuing even worth pursuing. After this conversation with my friend, i have to admit that there are so many things i have to check again if its even worth pursuing.

Knowing what is worthy of my time is one thing, having the balls to eliminate it and move on in life is a whole different thing.. I really want to take a leap of faith.

Have A Pretty Friday!

 

 

 

 

What a pretty little girl!

Have A Pretty Friday & Weekend.

 

 

 

 

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:)

So nice!!! So much thought and effort put into it!

Valentino Spring 2013

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Reality + some hormones.

You know that amazing feeling, of being wanted and being cared about? - It sometimes makes my day. Infatuation is it.

Hardly remember the feeling of falling in love. If i remember correctly, it was sweet smelling, rather warm, makes me flutter and stutter and blush. And it made the imperfect world seem impeccably perfect.

I remember love. And how hard it was staying around it, in it, on it. How mundane it actually is. Love is like a warm blanket - protects and comforts everyday. But it is especially appreciated when you need it the most. Other days you forget how to appreciate the blanket.

I'm afraid of it. I'm so in control right now that i'm so afraid to lose my balance. To be unglued.
But i know i can never outsmart getting hurt. Neither i could ever be ready to face it. But i think i'm letting go for a bit. So i can savour life.


Love for all of you! xoxo

 

When A Cute Guy Smiles At Me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Decisions,decisions,decisions.

It is my destiny to choose.
Seems so difficult when i'm spoilt with a million options.
The sky is the limit.