The everyone's life.

I know that everyone goes through this.. the planned life.

You go to school and college, and university  and then you get a job, then you find the great job, and the perfect boyfriend, and then you get engaged and then your whole life turns around, then you re-valuate yourself. if you succeed in finding yourself, you will not get married.. if you're in denial you get married anyway..

then you buy your first house, and car. and get pregnant. have kids, become mad because of your kids, then attend your children's wedding, carry your first grandchild.. then die.

I call this the super planned life. If i could have the guts.. i throw all these away and just live life the way i want it to be. I could, i would... but i cannot because i live in a world where everybody is living a planned life. And i am so... *rolls eyes* fed up of explaining myself...  maybe i am not like everyone.. and my plans are of course going to be different.. but it doesn't mean that i wouldn't get across to the other side...

I wished i had the guts, and its ok if i don't have the money.. maybe i could sell my kidney, or sell blood.. or you know.. work as a dish washer... or sweep floors.. or be a nanny ( =D love kids)
you know.. do things that no one will ever think its glamorous. i would love to be the understated person.... and live a beautiful interesting life.. rather than cursing my boss all day,everyday.. hahhahaahhaha.... or you know... curse the buses, or the stuck coffee machine...  =) i am made for greater things.... not exactly how the world would see it..