Puppy Love

I haven't slept in a long long time. Having to care for a sick puppy is full time exhausting.

I am not complaining, i would love to care for him, but mostly i am worried. i would love not to worry.

Well i cannot don't worry. Everyone around me is telling me he's going to be ok, he will be healed.

But you know what, he is not ok, until today he is not healed yet.

I don't understand why people keep saying that... is it to deceive ones-self? 

I am not a pessimist, i just really feel that we should consider ALL the possibilities before telling ourselves it's ok, because by doing so, you are actually preparing yourself for what is able to take place, both good and bad.

My heart just sinks when i see him lying down all sickly.

Heart-sick is the name. Whenever i see him, not being able to do things that other puppy at his age should be 

doing just breaks me. It just breaks me, he is so innocent and full of love.

It really hits me sometimes, how they are so simple and how their love is unconditional for those who love and care for them in the first place. It is really a lesson for me to learn. A few lessons in fact.

At such a tender age, he has shown me tremendous strength, his never give-up attitude puts me to shame.

He never once made a sound when he is in pain.

p/s ; he just came back from the vet, he still can't pee through his penis, so a artificial passage is made, until the urethra is healed ( *hopes* ) . He is resting right now. I am sorry about all my puppy posts, it is all i can think off. Thank you all for your prayers. I really appreciate them, so does Mr. Brown.

I hope you all have a lovely lovely day. Last night i stayed up the whole night watching him. Today, i am exhausted but i am very happy and my worries are at level 1. =) 

Till then you guys.