What A Pain!!

Ever since i started working, my whole daily routine has changed dramatically. My sleeping patterns, and exercise plans, even eating habits. Sometimes change can be very difficult to conquer.

I wake up early most of the days, unless i had a late night. Walk my dog, and then go for a run and house chores would be everywhere in between. But i always had the luxury of an afternoon nap. I obviously can't be sleeping in front of my computer at work now.. If you don't know already - i have a bad sleeping problem. I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. Sometimes i don't sleep.


The Effects?

1) Bad skin.
2) Please type sleep deprivation on Wikipedia.



I honestly envy people who can just fall straight to sleep and just stay asleep for hours. It seems like a very difficult thing for my body and mind to do. I would like to think that i have tried the many ways to try to sleep, from having warm milk, to a relaxing bath, to lavender oil, to getting drunk(WORKS!), and of course the last resort would be popping the pill - this only happened twice when i couldn't sleep for weeks.

I would really like to sleep. It is so frustrating, because most of the time i wake up the next morning feeling more tired than i was the day before.

Ever since i started working, i have included yoga into my daily routine, and i noticed that i have been experiencing terrible migraines.

Now combine the two scenarios.

Have a pleasant no-migraine day!!

Lagerfeld..... Lagerfeld.

Simplicity..

pictures from here.

World Standard.

I don't think i have mentioned this, but i am actually working for an international cosmetic company. So far work is ok, no heavy workload at all. But the pressure to look good is ... to the boiling point.

On the first day of my work, i spend about 20 minutes to put on make-up. Then on the way to wok, i was thinking and thinking... What if i cut out that fraction of putting on make-up and just sleep/walk my dog for a longer time.. {sometimes thoughts are evil}.. Later, when i report for work ... I got to know that make-up is vital (capital letters please.)

Oh yeah, alright.And so i thought - It is not so hard anyway. {Not true!}

After about a week here, i now realized why make-up is vital in a cosmetic company. I don't even need to be told to put on make-up. I now want to put on make-up, by my own free will. The people and customers that come in here. They all look like ...... supermodels.

Carefully coiffed shiny hair, slim and slender as a giraffe, and their skin..... is like ... baby's bottom. And yes with that kind of amazing skin, painting on make-up will definitely look better.

And i'm the girl whom sales assistants will ask if i need acne-scar cream at the pharmacy.

Putting on make up is really a chore for me. Not to mention the many many things i have to slather on my skin before the real make-up itself. I have so many scars to cover up, by the time i finish covering up its time to get in the car. Even if i try covering them up... they just look like i smothered mud onto cement surface - it just makes it stand out even more. So why bother!!??  Please don't get me started on the colors that i have to co-ordinate with my clothes. Gah! I wished i was my grandma. She is the type of woman who can actually sit in a salon for hours to get her hair done, and dressing up with a must for her. For me - tying up my hair is considered making and effort and the dressing up part... is non existence - unless i have a grand function. Even then, its tiring for me because i have to act girly.

Just yesterday some of the beauty advisers decided to give me some ... apparently needed "guide" on how to look good. Honestly - Message was loud and clear but i didn't hear a word. ;)
Life is too short - to be only wearing colors that suit your skin tone, or hide behind certain clothes. Wear what you want. If that red lipstick don't compliment your skin - let it stand out and work it like a boss!!

Oh, come on. What happened to having Fun? To set the record straight - i am world class standard , my brains and my heart. Oh. and my perfect shiny hair too!

Have a beautiful Friday!.

hahhahahahaha.

Just for fun.. :)

Hello - I work here.

I have a permanent flu. My office is made up of ice. Today, I wore three layers of -supposedly warming clothes, but its not helping at all. I am constantly eating-because i need heat(?) .. i think. And its not helping. My pants is getting tighter by the day.

Thank you. Have a non icy day.

Ridiculous.

I love my job ... because i am so free while at work. I can actually blog here....

Anyways that is not what i want to elaborate about. You know something? I have started to read- like actual reading. Like go to a bookstore- get a book and flip through the pages until the end. I never use to read-well other than the educational ones that i am required too... simply because i don't have interest it in i guess.

So imagine me.. totally not a reading person - going to the bookstore, in search of a book. Its A book. Any book. I don't know anything about good authors, or should i read fiction or non-fiction. I just want a good book.  {I secretly wish there's a machine that helped me with my situation.}

Most of the time i just find myself standing at the shelfs, thinking.. " Where do i start? " . 1 minute after that i find myself staring at the " What's Top This Week " section of the bookstore. So nothing interest me... because at the back of all the books.... are written with things like ..

 " A Splendid Read" , or  " Incredibly moving " ... or some massive lumps of words asking me to read it.

instead of the actual synopsis of the book....

So the first book i picked up was a "self-help" book. Something about getting to know men better. It has a catchy book title { and i don't know men that well either. }, so why not? i thought. I purchased it with a few other books.

When i flipped the page open. I totally regretted buying this book. The whole book points out the fact how men and women behave,react and understand the same things differently. I scanned through the pages and told myself i am not going to read or buy this kind of book ever again.

Simply because i find it an exaggeration of what the real truth is. Look i know how different men and women are, but not until the point where we are totally different like how the mars and venus statement. I got a little frustrated with the book and eventually myself for being so {fill in the blank.} 


I can read maps, and i can solve problem and i always give solutions when all someone needs is just a listening ear. And it is not true men can't multitask, or they retract into their "caves" when they are feeling down or they are not emotional-beings.

Maybe i should go back and see when this book was actually published. Because i'm really finding it irrelevant. Over the years, i have seen many men who are not only driven in careers, but whom also can be emotional and loving at the same time. And sure enough i have also seen many men who are way more emotional than they should be....

Well... yeah. So no more dumb self-help books-lah. Honestly the books that were interesting to me, are the ones filled with recipes that i can try at home- the best investment if you want to self-help yourself.