Alone vs lonely.

Hie....................... its exam period... and i have the urge to write even more because of the stress...=p. Well.. about loneliness and being alone, its almost the same but very very different at the same time.

Ever since i moved to kl for my studies, i have been alone most of the time, cause my family is so far away, and all my close friends are all around the world, and it quiet difficult for me to make new friends cause i am super shy and i dunno how to ice break.. whatever. So yea, i have been alone most of the time, but i do enjoy being alone actually. You take time for yourself. All your activities are the things you wanna do, not what others wanna do. I watch the movie i wanna watch, i eat what i wanna eat, at my own time, my own place. There's no fuss, its easy. Thats why i find it so hard to go out in groups, because no one actually can come to a conclusion because we have to satisfy everyone... and we all know-we really cannot satisfy everyone.

Being lonely is so different from being alone. Alone is just being by yourself, but lonely is when, you are alone or surrounded my people but you have this emptiness in your heart you cannot fill. And you just don't know what to do, can you cannot make it go away. Then you start to make distract yourself with work, sleeping, going out massively..... but you know you're doomed the minute you hit the bed. I don't know but whenever i hit the bed, i do a self reality check.... and then it creeps up to you.... that you are lonely.

Loneliness cannot be cured by anyone. you could be surrounded by friends and laugh. but you can still feel the emptiness. Then sometimes you wanna call that special someone, what if you don't have that special someone? Be like me, if you feel lonely. DEAL WITH IT.

Make your way out of it, Draw a map about it, and sit on it. For once in your life, welcome the human experience. Never once, use people's existence or emotion to fill yourself up. Its cheating. You're cheating yourself. Be around it, get out of it. You'll be stronger, plus you know how to deal with the next time around.