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Have you checked out my latest love?

I haven't got a name for him..

He is the most adorable little ball...

=)

What Blues???

My white puff ball... =D

Painstakingly beautiful.

What real love is supposed to be like.. enjoy!!!

Being home

alway

feels 

right.

I am so blessed. 

=)

Because i can.....

Some days, i feel so kick-ass, 

i can rule the world.

At the same time, i feel girly,

yet-very bold,

And some days i feel that

 i want to be subtle and soft,

Yet glamorous,

and daring,

and sexy,

and alluring and yet pretty like a flower,

not forgetting being classy and laid-back

And once in a while, i feel all princessy

Some days i want to dance all night long

other days, i just want to be cared for

and be held.

some days i just want to be alone,

and have lotsa fun.

Simply because 

I CAN

images take from here,here, here, here, and here.

Sore sight.

As a lady, i love to wear whatever i want (appropriate),whenever i want to.

Today i paired a t-shirt and skirt,

yet, astonishingly, 

a few men, still managed,

with their eyes,

scanned me, from the tip of my hair, right down to my toe nails,

made me feel that they have just seen me naked.

I feel exposed when they do that.

It is so rude, and i have no idea how to deal with it..

Lights and comfort.

 Last weekend, i made a trip back home, to spend a little time with my family.
I really missed them, and as always in the bus... i couldn't sleep.

I really don't like sleeping in buses ( if i could), in any means of transport because it gives me backache and my sore neck, so i more than willing to press my face against the window, looking for some tranquility that i was searching for. Something beautifully sculptured buildings cannot offer, nor new dresses or sky high heels could offer.

During my whole journey, i kept looking out the window, all i see is amber lights and car flash lights...
after all that is gone, where is it all dark and no lights to be seen, there was star lights. High up in the sky, beautifully scattered, bright and shinny.

Isn't it a wonder, that in darkness, you can still find beauty and comfort.
I am amazed at life, how it teaches me to slow down and look around, sometimes i almost feel lucky for all the troubles that i face in life, because if not for them - i wouldn't appreciate life as much as i would.

How was your weekend? I have another test tomorrow.. my brain is bleeding from all the thoughts and emotions and i have to put data regarding insurances in.. So tomorrow, i will be treating myself some well deserved red velvet cake. =)

Till then you guys, lotsa love for you guys!!

Sometimes it is comforting to know at least one person understands the pain- God.
This song is stuck in my head, playing like a broken record. It is some how comforts me - greatly.

Love is patient , Love is kind, it does not envy,

 it does not boast, it is not proud.

 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, 

it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Grey Day and Grey Night..

I wonder how long will i be stuck with this feeling, feeling low, useless and lost. I am constantly battling with myself internally.I try, try and try and try, but why does it seem that people don't give even two cents about it?

Then i fall into a spiral of emotions, thoughts and questions in my head. Wondered if my actions were wrong?
Then i start to feel sorry for myself, and slowly realize that there is no one in this world that i can count on, or expect anything kind in return except God.

Then i wished the people who hurt me, would just go away, and stop adding salt to my wound. When they apologize ( if they do). All i do is want to condemn them, because it hurts so much, so painful - it just sends me to a place there i can see no one, no light, sometimes i feel that place is Godless too. But something inside me tells me, be kind - always be kind. Be the kindness you want to see.

I'm struggling with this, " be the kindness you want to see " , is very difficult for me. I think the people i am surrounded by are not so nice, and i should surround myself with only loving and nice people.
If that is true, then who challenges me? That would be no one.

Today is a very slow day, i wished i could get some tender loving care from loved ones, but they all seem so far away, so spaced out.. this is when i have to stand and keep walking. Even though i can't picture God, i will try very hard, to picture Him walking with me, or even better, carrying me.

I have a presentation tomorrow, and all i am doing is just dazing and self-soothing.
Have a lovely weekend you guys!!! =)

Why would i want to choose to be the last,

 when i can,

 and deserve to be the first,

 in all situations.

 Like L'Oreal says it - 

" Because I'm Worth It " .

Today

Grey grey day despite the sunny sun.

hopefully i will get through the day.. and night.

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20 Things every woman deserves from the man in her life.

1 His undivided attention at important moments. Not I’ve-got-basketball-on-TV attention or I’m-mentally-undressing-you attention, but full presence.

2 Compliments that are actually spoken aloud. Things that don’t qualify: a pat on the bottom, a finger pistol plus wink, a “yesssss!” after great sex.

3 Good manners, even if you’ve been dating for years. He had you at “Hello,” but what makes him think he can keep you at “S’up?”

4 A thoughtful balance of refreshing honesty and merciful little white lies. A few examples: He should speak the truth when you ask, “Are you hurt by what I said earlier?” But he should fudge when you ask, “Honey, do you mind if my mom comes to dinner?”

5 His utter lust for (and unwavering devotion to) one or more of your body parts, be it your legs, breasts, hips or behind. Bonus points if his fervor spills over to you and pumps up your body ego.

6 Lots of foreplay. And then some more. Plus…

7 …sex that involves eye contact, kissing and cuddling. This isn’t to suggest that maple syrup, cartwheels and the French maid costume are out, but you should be having plain vanilla love whenever you want it.

8 Acknowledgement of your relationship to his friends, to his family, and, yes, on Facebook. Sylvie, 31, confesses: “I insisted one boyfriend change his online profile from ‘single’ to ‘in a relationship.’ An electronic betrayal can hurt as much as a real one.”

9 Proud PR. He revels in your achievements, doesn’t feel diminished by them, and loves acting as your personal publicist.

10 Use of his “inside voice” during arguments. Grown-ups should be able to bicker—even flat-out fight—without rupturing a vocal cord.

11 The willingness to never, ever blame your behavior on your period, unless you say, “Sorry, it must be my period.” And even then he should just smile and nod, smile and nod.

12 Knight-in-shining-armor-ness. Modern-day gallantry does not make you a spoiled princess, so just enjoy the pampering when he rescues you from boring dinner party conversations, picks you up in his Honda chariot and slays dragons—OK, roaches—for you.

13 A call, not a text, that comes when he says it will. Making you wait by the phone is a power play—and as Dana, 36, puts it, “Somehow a text from my husband when he’s on a business trip doesn’t quite say ‘Good night, sweetheart’ like a phone call would.”

14 Encouragement when you stand up to the person you’ve never had the guts to before. And a big hug if it doesn’t work out quite the way you had hoped.

15 Gifts he knows you’ll adore, even if they’re not 100 percent his style.

16 A more-to-love attitude when you gain five pounds.

17 Another chance. So you blew it: You got drunk at his high school reunion, got caught peeking at his e-mail, had lunch with an ex-boyfriend and somehow forgot to tell him about it, called him by that ex-boyfriend’s name in a heated moment. You’re going to make some mistakes (and so will he). Once you’ve groveled sufficiently and let him vent for a bit, he should be prepared to forgive you. Cue the makeup sex.

18 Amusement at your quirks. He gets a kick out of your chocolate-is-a-food-group approach to nutrition and thinks it’s funny you call your best friend to watch reality TV “together.” Kudos to the man who recognizes eccentricities for what they are: the stuff that makes you deliciously you.

19 Half of the housework. That’s right, all you cohabitors, half the dishes, half the laundry, and half—OK, maybe all—the garbage-schlepping.

20 Respect. If Aretha can sing a song about it for four decades, we can mention one more time that any guy worthy of your love will be unstinting with R-E-S-P-E-C-T. And you shouldn’t have to spell this one out for him.

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MAD MEN

Girls just want to have fun... =D

Rainy,wet,cold Sunday.

Hey peeps, sorry for the silence! I have been rather busy and it was a bad bad week.

With already my very busy schedule, i had to nurse a broken heart, someone dear just collapse and ..... and there was a reunion with my school friends. I just felt like stopping time and stand still. So much is happening and all i am feeling i just... " what do i want to cook " ?? i just want to do comforting stuffs. But i can't because i have 2 test next week and a 20% presentation to go through.

1)Some days i feel that the world IS filled with good people, people who care, love and are just simple. Then i realized, how naive of me... there are bad people too, people who are not nice, who makes you feel everything in the world but peace and love. My love hate relationship with men, has mellowed a lot, (older much ???),but i just can't understand how bad things can happen to good girls, like really really really good girls.

2) Isn't it heart wrenching for someone to just lose a parent in a glimpse of an eye. That was what happened to my friend, she's young and raw. I can't help to ponder, how is she going to go through life without her dad.
Fathers are very important figures, to me at least, my dad is the only man who loves me like no other.
How would anyone, so young and tender, handle the lost of a dear father, and then takes on his duties, and remains a balanced growth throughout her life? I really hopes that she stays strong, and lean on God for guidance and comfort in these difficult times. She said, "It happened too fast, and i still feel him here with us".
Can't imagine the pain she's going through.

3) I had a little reunion with my school girls, i had so much fun, and would do it all over again. Met so many beautiful souls that night, most men. *wink wink* however, we all know what to expect when you meet men at bars. haha.

Now, it is seriously back to business. It is raining heavily outside, and i have to study for my test, when all i want to do is just lie down on my soft little bed and curl up under my blanket. I feel hypnotized, like as if my bed is calling out to me...
Anyways, happy Sunday to you guys, hopefully it would not be ssoooooooo blue tomorrow.
With lotsa love,
meeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

=(

It has been a pretty black week for me.
Deaths and heartaches and
dilemmas.
Hopefully things will
be better soon.


till then, take care.

Valentino A/W 2011

Pretty buns adorned with beautiful accessories 

So pretty!!!!!

www.valentino.com/ images courtesy of Sonny Vandevelde for DANSK

Do you ever....

                   

                 

Feel that you are living the way others are living? Do you feel genuinely happy from deep inside?

Something you have to realize is that, this is your life. And there's no right and wrong decisions when it comes to your future, what you really want to do. What really makes you happy?

Is what before you really what you want, or you are choosing it because it is convenient? I believe when a person is living his dreams, wearing his passion on his sleeve, and smiling from deep inside are the happiest people in life. 

Take a step back and look at yourself, your life. What you really want from life, is life giving you back what you are putting in. If you are working from 8-5? What you are getting back - worth the time put in?  Are you loving what you do? What are you passionate about? What makes your heart sing and dance?

Do you want to be doing what you are currently doing for life? And was this what you ever hoped for?

It is your life, you should be behind the wheels, taking control of your own life, own decisions, own happiness.

Never ever let someone drive your life, or, let someone ride your life is you both have different destinations.

Rule of thumb, are you contented? Or you know deep inside you, you can do so much better.

 Break free and do it. All the things you want to do, that makes your heart happy.

Be brave and strive for it- because no one is going to do it for you.

picture from here

I am at my uncle's place.. and there's this cute giant teddy bear!!!

=D

So fluffy!!!

It's the weekEND!!

A little quote for the weekend

Have a GREAT weekend!!

Why Don't You?

the strength of one’s mind 

to see the beauty, 

to see the opportunity 

is a true gift

Growth.

Tonight is finally the night i can rest. These past 2 weeks have been pretty tough and fast moving.I have been feeling really exhausted. Right after finished my last assignment for this semester,

i immediately began just to relax and ponder about my life.

I just celebrated my birthday about 2 weeks back, even on my birthday i had a paper to sit for.Nonetheless, my birthday was beautiful and i was contented.Looking back , i grew. Physically, mentally, emotionally, in every aspect possible.And i am so happy and glad that i took the initiative to shape myself, my attitude, my dreams and hope, my mentality and my happiness.

A year ago, i remember that that point in my life, i was kinda lost, i guess it's that quarter crisis, where i just want to devour the world and see everything and learn everything but i don't know where to start.I still don't know where to start, don't know how am i to achieve my dreams,but i know i will be there someday, so sure i am.I know a year ago, i didn't have that positive energy in me or the confidence, and i was a person who liked to do the finger-pointing..when i was the only person to blame for the choices i make that has indirectly impacted my life.

Today, i am more confident, loving, positive, happier, smarter,wiser, emotionally more stable.I am growing, and i love myself for that, because i don't want to be left behind, i feel like i am moving with the world.

I am really glad.

Let's hope my next birthday, i will be better than i already am.I want a simple, interesting, meaningful, elegant and beautiful life.And not to just exist in this world. I can't wait, to be out there, living my dreams.

I know i am just at the starting point,but i feel good already.

*It's raining heavily and i can sleep in-tomorrow's class is cancelled*

Do you think i have grown ?

How to be ...

 A Good Friend.

Anything that ends with "ships" are hard. Honestly if you ask me, what is the highest maintenance thing in the world, it would be friendships. I have quite a number of friends, but real genuine friends are really hard to come by.

I have yet to find a good girl friend ( besides my beloved sister ), namely because i am not the typical girl - just not the typical girl, and i find it hard to fit in conversations or outings with these girls, so i join the dudes. Guys are way easier to mingle around with, but the downside is that they can be/ are really insensitive at times.

I hope i would find my girlfriends someday, i can't wait to hangout at coffee shops, and talk about dresses, have luncheons together and party together!! But we all know friendships is way more than that. And when do we put in effort, or walk out from one. I sometimes find it too hard, because most of the time, i find myself valuing the friendship at a 8/10 but to the other party, it is almost insignificant.

I do have close friends, but i never came across that one person who knows me inside out (except my sister)!

However, until the day comes i meet you girlies, here are a few ways to be a really good friend.

1) You should never ever make comparisons among yourselves, creating competition between the two of you is a no-no. 

2) Sometimes, it is really normal to feel envious ( in a good way ), but never jealous. Savour it and let it go.

3) You have to be genuinely happy for your best friend ( in terms of her success, her happiness, etc), no matter how unfair you feel about the situation is.

For eg, if you have to save for 5 years for a down payment and her dad buys her a car..  You might feel that she doesn't deserve it at all, but who are we to say what each individuals deserve?

4) Make sure it is two ways. You both value each other equally. If she is there for you and has given the best that she can, so should you. Be sensitive to each others feelings, generally, do what you want others to do onto you and you won't go wrong.

5) Never take pleasure in the misfortunes of others

 ( Schadenfreude ) 

A feeling which we all experience from time to time, and we know it doesn't feel great. Let it go, would youd want your bestie to be dancing inside when she sees you heartbroken? Most certainly not.

Well, well, be a good friend, a good soul. There is a real shortage for good friends in this world. =)
I hope i am one to ( whoever ). 

    

 Wants to wear something POW today to uni, but i know, everyone in uni will faint if they see me in either one  of these two beautiful pieces of clothing. Tuesday is slow for me, and i need some "omph" to it.

Ohhhh, how i can't wait to grow up and dress up my days with awesome beautiful things. =)

Happy Tuesday to you!!! 

one  |  two

She and i...

As you all know, i'm a pretty awkward person, with very few close friends. However throughout my entire course in uni, i did meet someone pretty awesome. We have the same wavelength , approximately same taste in fashion and clothes, almost as crazy as me. I'm so grateful for a girl friend like that, when i'm surrounded by a sea  of testosterone on a daily basis.

Off she goes to U.S to do her masters. =)  Hope you rock U.S girl!!! I will too soon!!!

P/s : I have been having massive headaches these past few days and i'm not spare from it today.
Hopefully my Monday won't be filled with people who will aggravate my already thudding head.
Happy Monday to you!! =) Till then.. byeeeeeeeeeee