Post Trauma.

These past few days i have felt so low i can just melt into the ground without anyone noticing, hahhaha.

So i went back home to be nurtured, by my parents, siblings and of course my dear dear companion - my one and true companion. His love for me makes me want to weep - when i am the first person he looks for when he wakes up, and I am the person he follows around the house ( even to the toilet ). 

Like every Sunday, I went to church, and this time i felt that God was speaking to me directly. The message was for ME. On how i should love the person who first loved me, and how i should sow good seeds in my life. And the ultimate advise - You will reap what you sow.

In all these chaos, i managed to read this book on the journey back home. It revoked many feelings on how love should really be - and it should stand the test of time. I was really amazed at the writers descriptive skills. It made me giggle, laugh and definitely cry. 

You can check it out HERE!!

I also re-watched one of my favourite movie of all time. 

Synopsis here

This movie talks about a father's unconditional love for his young daughter. I don't know what was i thinking watching this movie again, 20 minutes into the movie, the waterworks began!! Damn! This movie gets to me every single time.

I have been very down, and i thank you all for reading my grey grey posts. hahhaha

But it all ends today. Starting from today I am going to sow (more) beautiful seeds of my life. To you,

No matter how bruised I am, i will always love you and i wish you nothing but the best in life.I know i will miss you terribly. I also acknowledge that sometimes love is not enough, i have never seen you as a failure but a person who has so much potential hence the pushing. In my eyes, you are far from a failure. Sometimes what we think we feel - it is just one dimension of the thousands. But still, nonetheless. Love for you and all my readers.

I hope you have a great great week. And what is life, if there is no ups and downs. What are downs if you don't cry when you hit the ground. I will keep in mind that God loves me so so much, that he has saved a place in heaven for me. And i will live for Him instead, and me, and those whom love me dearly and wants to see me grow.

A little quote for you: 

‎"Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation" - Kahlil Gibran