Older=Wiser??

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! =D

I celebrated my birthday yesterday and it felt great!! The whole week was about my birthday. Last weekend with my parents then with my frens and then with my sister!!! and i had this beautiful cute cake!!!!

So, i am getting older but they say old is gold... I guess so. But on the contrary, i know some very old people who are .... not wise???

Honestly i dread celebrating my own birthday, I would feel awful on this particular day. I'll look back, what have i done for the past year. Did i achieve anything? Have lessons have i learnt? Then it appears to me that i haven't learnt much, grow much, or gained much(except weight)-its like an exponential graph.

After realising that i haven't learnt much for the pass one year, i would feel worst. I AM getting older, when am i going to get things right? or get things down. I feel responsibility creeping up my sleeves and few years down the road, what type of person would i be? Am i working hard enough to achieve what i really desire in life, and honestly- what do i really want in life. Sometimes i think i know, but sometimes i feel like i don't know. I don't know whats out there to offer me,and i can't choose without knowing,seeing and experiencing it!! We always think what we choose is the best, buy we all know its never the best.. There's always something better. Maybe i should just appreciate.

But then again, i am better off than so many people who just waste their life away, for example, wasting time, money and wasting their youth ... i honestly feel, we should learn as much as we can while we can (my brain is getting slower by the day) not as in educational, But in all aspect, if you don't wanna pursue a course, learnt something, gain experience, grow intellectually, emotionally, spiritually, physically... whatever.. As you go with it, you'll find those things that you love and are passionate about. Once you have found it, do it for life. Trust me, waking up everyday knowing you'll do what you love for the rest of your life, brings you pure joy!!

However on my birthday, i realized that i have grew in many ways too. I've learnt to let go,

learnt that happiness is an option. I got to know that, family and close friends matters the most from today until the end of time. However i also got to know that, what goes around sometimes don't come around. No matter how much we try, sometimes its just not meant to be. No matter how much we loved, we will never be loved back the same way (only God can).

I had a wonderful birthday with my sister!!! Thanks Wawel!! =) i love you.