I was reading through my blog and i realized that i haven't updated much about me being more gentle for the lent period, plus its 3am and i can't sleep at all.
So, have i been more gentle these days? I would say yes to that question, but not entirely.
I have been more gentle to myself. For example its ok to not score well, and its ok to totally not study when i don't feel like it. Its OK to not go to the gym and bla bla bla. (I always expect myself to do certain things by certain time, if failed to do so... you don't wanna know . hahhahah )
But what is more important is that, i realized i'm way easier on myself, not so much of pressure on myself.
And when i talk, i try not to jump, or react as if there's a nuclear explosion, but sometimes i find myself too refine. Like. UNNATURAL. But it does me some good. I guess, its nicer to hear gentle people talk.
I don't allow myself to think negative thoughts, even if i do, its just one minute and i let it go.
And the most true success, which i have to share is that. ..
The other day, i was hanging out with one of the most irritating chauvinistic pig ever, the kind where he has to have the last say, and his ways are better than yours kind. So i was terrified that i would feel all beaten up like i always do. He was insulting, and mean as usual. But this time, i didn't even bother to say anything back to him. Because you know why? its such a waste of time. And guess what, in the process of being mean to others, he managed to put his girlfriend down numerous time. I felt so much pain for her. I stood up for her a few times, but i could see that every time he tried to insult somebody, she ended up being insulted as well, but he quickly did something to comfort her feelings. Just heart breaking....
Why in the world is she stuck with a guy, who needs to brag and insult people in order to feel that he is better than others? That was the ultimate revenge.
So was i glad? Not really. I felt awful... because i first felt great that he made such a blunder.
But then again. What could i have done? I guess i did good this time.
And i hope i carry on being more gentle as i age, and for the rest of my life.
Isn't life amusing sometimes?
My eyes are a little heavy. Good night peeps. =)
So, have i been more gentle these days? I would say yes to that question, but not entirely.
I have been more gentle to myself. For example its ok to not score well, and its ok to totally not study when i don't feel like it. Its OK to not go to the gym and bla bla bla. (I always expect myself to do certain things by certain time, if failed to do so... you don't wanna know . hahhahah )
But what is more important is that, i realized i'm way easier on myself, not so much of pressure on myself.
And when i talk, i try not to jump, or react as if there's a nuclear explosion, but sometimes i find myself too refine. Like. UNNATURAL. But it does me some good. I guess, its nicer to hear gentle people talk.
I don't allow myself to think negative thoughts, even if i do, its just one minute and i let it go.
And the most true success, which i have to share is that. ..
The other day, i was hanging out with one of the most irritating chauvinistic pig ever, the kind where he has to have the last say, and his ways are better than yours kind. So i was terrified that i would feel all beaten up like i always do. He was insulting, and mean as usual. But this time, i didn't even bother to say anything back to him. Because you know why? its such a waste of time. And guess what, in the process of being mean to others, he managed to put his girlfriend down numerous time. I felt so much pain for her. I stood up for her a few times, but i could see that every time he tried to insult somebody, she ended up being insulted as well, but he quickly did something to comfort her feelings. Just heart breaking....
Why in the world is she stuck with a guy, who needs to brag and insult people in order to feel that he is better than others? That was the ultimate revenge.
So was i glad? Not really. I felt awful... because i first felt great that he made such a blunder.
But then again. What could i have done? I guess i did good this time.
And i hope i carry on being more gentle as i age, and for the rest of my life.
Isn't life amusing sometimes?
My eyes are a little heavy. Good night peeps. =)
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